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One goal in mind 23 Apr 2023 01:59 #394824

Hi chevra, gut vuch. 
I know this forum is primarily about issues with shmiras einyim and bris, but I wanted to hear the chevra's take on something somewhat related that may be a cause for me. I'm sorry if this is a bit hard to piece together, but I hope the message gets across. 

I feel like everything I do, or have done, over the past 7 or so years has been with the sole purpose of just getting through the time until I can get married. I have been constantly obsessed with the idea of a life partner and that relationship for years. I'm constantly fantasizing (not in an assur way) about living a life in my own house with my wife, how we'll meet, dates, at home with children, and I feel like everything in my life right now is just a היכי תמצא to be old enough to date and get married. 
I've often fantasized about being able to put life on autopilot and wake up in a few years when Be"H I'll be married.

I grew up (and continue to be) in a very sheltered environment, so I've had little to no contact with members of the opposite gender. At this point I'm 21 and in yeshiva, and I still don't feel ready to begin this lifelong dream. I often see yungerman walking around with their wives, and inside I feel a cringe of longing for the time when that will be me. As I get closer to the time that I think I will start shidduchim, the inner loneliness and longing continues to grow.
I just want to ask the chevra for insight- into if they've experienced something similar and how they deal with it, and if it could lead to a dangerous relationship.

Thanks for being there for me and everyone else on here.
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