Thanks, love you buddy.  going through a really hard time these days. I'm meeting my rebbi and parts of me a petrified to death to be near him. Because I'm committed to him as a rebbe, yet he's not my phycologist or anything, so he doesn't create the safety needed for the parts of me that need safety. I cant sleep think, or function. I feels like I'm having a heart/panic attack the past 5 days straight. Its terrible.

Hey, buddy! We are here! Hugs!

Going through a weird time lately. Bringing up a lot of feelings and instability in order to heal. I feel like im on a roller-coaster. im going through so many shifts emotionally, i no longer know who i am at the moment. I got 4 days recently and im very happy about that!!!


On a different note, its dissapointing to me that i started posting less on gye. But i dont feel like i have a group here that lives life the way i do. So i feel a bit lonely out here in my approach. I dont get chizuk from all the spiritual oriented posts. that doesnt help me grow, it just makes me feel giulty. But it seems that that is the predominant mehalech here. (through no-ones fault) So its dissappointing to me, but theres no-one to blame. 
Id love to hear from the guys, How is everyones else's feelings at in life?