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Re: Diary and thoughts 12 Jul 2020 05:33 #352441

BH it was a great shabbos and a great(busy) week. Doesnt seem like Ill get to a HB piece till monday, but until then we should continue to plow on. 
Ive hit a few months clean a few times in past without GYE, but this is the first time hitting 50 since counting on GYE and its been great so far. Bzh i should have continued hatzlacha and hopefully a I can be little chizuk to the GYE crowd.
"You will never be entirely comfortable. This is the truth behind the champion – he is always fighting something. To do otherwise is to settle."
Battle on, and I always take advice.

Re: Diary and thoughts 12 Jul 2020 10:22 #352450

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Mazal Tov!!!

Huge accomplishment!

You are my inspiration, keep it up.

Hatzlachah, looking forward on hearing more good news!

All the best,
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Re: Diary and thoughts 14 Jul 2020 05:28 #352550

Im usually not one to go off on my life's situation outside of the inyan of the website, but today I had a particularly rough day. Esp worse bec I was expecting it to be a great day. Mini crisis that has to be dealt with and I felt the need to vent. 
But BH I didnt use masturbating as my release. So thats one of the postives of my matziv.
I didnt finish this post and the whole situation flipped letova! CRAZY! I stopped after the word "matziv" for around a hour and by the time I got back to GYE the whole situation flipped for the good! The Yad of Hashem is amazing!! 
"You will never be entirely comfortable. This is the truth behind the champion – he is always fighting something. To do otherwise is to settle."
Battle on, and I always take advice.

Re: Diary and thoughts 19 Jul 2020 18:22 #352751

BH everything going well. I went shopping the other day in a mall and I must say I was quite impressed with myself and how I watched my eyes. BH progress is being made and I think its also important to note it. 
Bli neder bein hazmanim I will be a bit more active on GYE and looking forward to closing out days 60-90. 
"You will never be entirely comfortable. This is the truth behind the champion – he is always fighting something. To do otherwise is to settle."
Battle on, and I always take advice.

Re: Diary and thoughts 02 Aug 2020 03:32 #353221

Good voch raboosi, BH Im still going strong, 73 days. Ive been really busy and prob will continue to be busy to post often but bzh Ill try to be around here and there.
Hatzlacha everyone!
"You will never be entirely comfortable. This is the truth behind the champion – he is always fighting something. To do otherwise is to settle."
Battle on, and I always take advice.
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Re: Diary and thoughts 02 Aug 2020 05:05 #353224

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Busy is awesome! Nice to here from you, we miss you when you are not around.

Hatzlachah,
Wilnevergiveup
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Re: Diary and thoughts 09 Aug 2020 01:47 #353504

Good vuch! 
Once again I've been busy and cant be around GYE too much(its a good busy), but BH everything is going really well. 10 more days! Looking forward! 
Btw if anyone wants to shmuss feel free to email me at boftheg1@gmail.com, Ill try my best to respond.
Hatzlacha! 
"You will never be entirely comfortable. This is the truth behind the champion – he is always fighting something. To do otherwise is to settle."
Battle on, and I always take advice.

Re: Diary and thoughts 12 Aug 2020 23:32 #353684

Its been a while since Ive really posted anything of content but here we are.

Around 3 months ago I decided to really up the ante and really began strategizing and taking steps on overcoming the yetzer of porn and masturbating. How and what I did isn't the point of the post. What I did what want to convey to the oilam is the amount of siyata dishmya, happiness, and success I had over the past 3 months in all the other areas of my life. So many things(middos and other random inyanim) that Ive been working on unsuccessfully, finally began to hit off. Friendships that I had that were great and amazing, flourished even more. My sedarim and avodos hashem have become so much more productive and I finally have the time of the day to accomplish the things I wanted to accomplish(at least begin to set out to accomplish them) . On top of that, many things that needed a "dose of luck" to work out, bh have been working out for the better(aka siyata dishmaya).

Im not saying I know whats the reason for any or all of it. And BH my life was doing gans fine before also. But DONT ever say its not worth it. Cause it so is. It is worth the fight. And this is only the "visible" reward. Who knows the oilams your creating in the next world.

The yetzer is a tricky tricky little beast. Hes cunning and clever. But dont ever let him convince you its not worth it.

Hatzlacha raboosi!
"You will never be entirely comfortable. This is the truth behind the champion – he is always fighting something. To do otherwise is to settle."
Battle on, and I always take advice.

Re: Diary and thoughts 13 Aug 2020 02:07 #353691

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Hi battle-of-the-gen
Amazing chizzuk. There is nothing like seeing other people succeed. Keep it up and I hope many others will learn from you as well!
"If I am not for myself, who will be for me? But if I am only for myself, who am I? If not now, when?"
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Re: Diary and thoughts 19 Aug 2020 04:40 #353981

90 days! BH! Just a step in the journey, but defiantly a good checkpoint and sign of progress. 
Hopefully Hashem will grant me the koach to continue to be matzliach in the battle against the yetzer hara, and all my GYE family will see and find the yeshuas they need.
Hatzlacha!
"You will never be entirely comfortable. This is the truth behind the champion – he is always fighting something. To do otherwise is to settle."
Battle on, and I always take advice.

Re: Diary and thoughts 19 Aug 2020 04:59 #353983

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Mazal tov and congratulations on 90! May the rest of your life be a successful 90 after successful 90!

Re: Diary and thoughts 19 Aug 2020 06:45 #353987

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Mazal Tov!

You are an inspiration to all of us!

Keep it up!

May you be able to continue to get to many more 90's.

All the best,
Wilnevergiveup
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Re: Diary and thoughts 09 Oct 2020 21:04 #355952

Gutten moed everyone, I hope everyone is battling and strategizing successfully against the yetzer. 
Just wanted to share with the GYE oilam that BH I became a chossin recently!
BIG shoutout to everyone that helped me get started and get going and it was a BIG reason why I felt comfortable starting to go out in the first place and now get engaged. BH 141 days clean and counting and iyh many many more. Thank you to everyone.(Every response on forum, every "thank you", email, view, private message, google hangout, phone call- especially phone calls, and text really helped so big yasher koach)
Iyh everyone that puts effort and works on this inyan hard should see their own personal yeshuoas and much bracha vhatzlacha!
"You will never be entirely comfortable. This is the truth behind the champion – he is always fighting something. To do otherwise is to settle."
Battle on, and I always take advice.

Re: Diary and thoughts 09 Oct 2020 21:32 #355953

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Mazel Tov!!!!!
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל


"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
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Re: Diary and thoughts 09 Oct 2020 22:01 #355954

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Beautiful! Mazal tov! Thanks for sharing!

I'm sure you already know this but just a quick reminder:

Marriage isn't a medicine for this area. If you go into marriage expecting to satisfy your teenage years of lusting- you will never be satisfied and will enter a world of unhappiness and will drag your wife into it to.

BUT... If you continue with your amazing work, refrain from lusting, understand that to be happy and satisfied will only come from being happy and satisfied with what you have, you will have such an amazing marriage and happiness will pour forth upon you and your spouse.

Right now you probably can't fathom the idea of fantasizing about other woman, or of having unreasonable expectations from your beloved kallah, but it will come unfortunately. Prepare for that properly and correctly.

Hatzlacha and mazal tov again!

A gut yom tov!

                                   Grant
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