Markz wrote on 25 Apr 2017 00:35:

I got #3 for free. I'll never be zoche to #1 

im so excited to update you, i stayed sober yesterday night, in my wildest dream 3 weeks ago i wouldnt believe that I will stay clean such a night without my wife on site, the nights when my wife used to be away, vacation or summer monthes was used to be the most dirty ones, i just cant imagine that i successfully finished yesterday's TODAY clean, i was so affraid of a fall.
i have to admit, that it popped into my mind a few times some thoughts, like touching and pleasuring my self, but i pushed it away in the second it came to my mind, i didnt let it come to fruition, and im so happy with my self.
so again, אודה לד' מאד בפי, i prayed so much the last few days that this few days should pass בשלום, so im happy that one day has gone clean.
i spend at night reading the GYE handbook, and FREE LUST TRUCK TOWING thread, there is a lot of good stuff there, thank you Markz, you are the guy.
i dont know what by the end hold me back, and to stay clean, 1) that ill be depressed, ashamed and having to start day one again, 2) reading on our forums, and the support from all of you , or both, ill leave that to you to decide.
let me finish with my biggest THANK YOU  for all our great חברים לדבר מצוה you were my support, without you, i would never be what im today, you will definitely sahre the שכר בעוה"ב.
im so excited, i feel like a million dollars.
lets focus again today only for TODAY.
will keep you posted again tomorrow morning.

Shivisi_Hashem wrote on 25 Apr 2017 13:19:

I love your attitude and your desire and need for recovery.
KOMT

I had a great and clean night, my wife is coming home tonight, so I can close for now my My Upcoming Dilemma , I would like to thank you all for your support, especially Markz, with his great links at his signature, that saved me, not to mention my punishment,  when my wife is away It used to be my lowest time, with no control at all, not thinking a bit what it will feel after the act, but now, as a GYE member, I had my highest time, I'm soooo happy for that, I feel so good.
what it help me overall, Might help others in time of need, support from all of you, the Handbook, Reading forums, and at once when I was in an emergency situation, I went out on my porch and wrote 50 times a slogan..... LoL.... that cooled me down.
next time home alone? in the summer, 8 full weeks, will discuss then..

Beautiful job

​I think the greatest part was that youwere not afraid/embarrassed to reach out and find the help you needed
A real inspiration

KOMT 

MayanHamisgaber wrote on 26 Apr 2017 18:12:



That is so important!

A very very great inspiration !

And like others said, the most important was to seek for help and not being blocked by addiction saying : "You can do it alone ! It's a big shame to talk about it with others !"
And one day at a time too.

Hachem may see all your efforts with a big warm smile, and keep these clean days into your gold vault for always