I am several days clean right now and am facing the struggles of early sobriety. I am proud of some progress of the last few days. My wife holds the password to my phone, literally everything is blocked. I have to request her to unlock any site I choose to visit, this helps a lot. All social media is blocked which I am grateful for, it is a hazardous wasteland of spiritual distraction for me. 

   The last couple of nights we had planned on being intimate, however she hasn't been feeling well so plans changed. I had been in anticipation of course. This would normally be a time when I acted out, instead I spent time reading GYE materials and went to bed without acting out in selfishness, BH!

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GREAT GOING!!!!

KEEP US POSTED AND KEEP ON TRUCKKNG!!!!

Small request brother. try stick to one thread please. Thanks

Every clean day is something to celebrate! Lechaim! Iyh many more successful days!!

Mazeltov! Good decisions!

What are the struggles of early sobriety, per se?

Mainly just wanting to use and nail biting through the first few days. The awakening, as I call it is tough also. Having a few days clean and receiving that moment of clarity where you realize how selfish and self destructive you have been. I've realized that I make excuses for my terrible relationship with HaShem when I am in active addiction, convincing myself that he doesn't care about me at all. In sobriety I realize how ridiculous this is and I feel shame for my behavior. Changing habits, such as what I am looking at in the restroom, before bed etc...is another. Picking up a book or studying Torah rather than reaching for my phone. Re-connecting with my wife and making her feel appreciated with sincerity. But mainly just the course correction in my heart on a daily basis. Getting in GYE and posting is helping. Going to meetings is helping also. I feel strength building within.

Well done Yoseph.
You are being tested the most anyone can be and have recognized it.
Keep going!