HEY STRUGGLING

DID YOUR LORRY GET IN A JAM SOMEWHERE BETWEEN ABERDEEN AND BORNMOUTH

OR ARE YOU STUCK IN CHELMSFORD??

KEP ON LORRYING!!

sorry, still here, still trying.

b''H since i finally have a filter on my machine (which was the only one without) I just don't have the temptation any more. I am working to curb my wandering eye on the train etc but I can't look at porn any more so i haven't given it much thought :-)

I wish I had gotten it earlier - I wanted to but it seemed incompatible with mac os 10.6

in the end i was so fed up, i installed it anyway

I'm breaking my self-imposed ban on posting again...

I just have to say that's awesome! You did something amazing, and you can already see the change in you! That's fantastic!

We can always look back and wish we'd done something sooner, but hey - you did it now!

When I finish a mesechta, do I wish I'd finished it 5 years ago? Of course! But i still make a siyum, and I'm happy about it!

And if you read my thread, you'll see that actually posting here means that this is something that's really special to me.

You rock!

Struggling in the UK wrote on 14 Jan 2010 22:52:
Well it's about time. I think the healing process can really only begin after that step is made.
By the way, I never told you this, but I just think you should know. The reason I originally signed up on GUE, was because one time after a fall (a couple of months ago), I was looking around for advice on the web on how to escape the hell, and I saw your thread on GUE (don't ask how I ended up specifically by YOUR thread, I just did), and at that moment I realized my problem was more common than I thought, and that people can and do work through it.
The rest is history, I'm B"H slowly but surely climbing my way up the chart.
So I never said Thank you yet, so I'll tell you now,
Shkoyach, you really caused an amazing change in my life.

Wow - SITUK, you hear that? That's truly incredible!

And KG, that's an incredible chizuk, thank you for sharing - we should all remember that by being part of GYE, we're parading ourselves, and offering a chance for others to peek in and be inspired by our struggles, our successes, and even our falls and getting ups...

Thanks very much KollelGuy - may it be a kapora for us both!

Let's make sure we get to day 90 together and beyond (i've still got a while to go but feel I'm getting there now)

Remember - 90 days (and beyond) is definitely a good thing. But far more important than that is getting to a place where we can keep living, and get to a healthier place so that we no longer feel the pull of these things as strongly.

It's so odd. I'm on 14 and have had minor wobbles in the past few days in so far as I have been really in the mood for computer misuse and all that that leads to.

However I now have a filter, have absolutely no possibility to access it, and so the wobbles have gone as soon as they have started. Without the filter I reckon it is a strong possibility that I may have succumbed. As it is though, I have been able to stand firm.

I have been fasting on Mondays and Thursdays through Shovovim and feel like I'm growing. That said, I do feel without the filters I may have fallen.

keep on lorrying!!

Wow! That's great! You put yourself in a situation where you prevented falls - that's exactly what we need to do, all the time!

My dear friend, you have taken the first and most important step towards teshuva and recovery, but keep in mind that your work does not end here. This is just making the damage less likely to happen again. The real work is the work inside yourself. Making yourself into a person who does not do those things - even if they would theoretically be available.

Hey siuk?? You there?? Hello?? How are you doing mate??

SIK I hope your still clean and just on a GYE break ...

hi
Sorry for the delay - a combination of busy incredibly busy and not wanting to come on.
I sometimes find that staying clean I just want to avoid even thinking about these aveiros. I suffer from OCD and when I think about something I sometimes can't shake it from my head. I have fallen before simply because I just HAVE to have a look at the image I can't shake. So for me doing something else is critical. Anyway, most important I have those filters so there is no option!!

Glad to hear about filters!