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Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 19 Dec 2016 20:26 #300405

waydown OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 670 Karma: 7	some were very on point some not relevant to me and #7 is exactly the opposite of what i sought.

Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 19 Dec 2016 20:38 #300406

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waydown wrote on 15 Dec 2016 18:16:

Ok I know I will sound like a broken tape recorder. But I need to write.

Once again I am back. I tried to meet a frum women in person (just to meet not a total affair.) Our connection was only over a short time span ( day or 2). We did chat on the phone. But today she dumped me and I am not even sure why. Here are my feelings straight off the press.

1) As many people have, she respected my upstanding values and was wondering why I was there.
2) Prior to the dump like over the past day or so I was like excited and very very nervous to the point of butterflies in my stomach. Like extremely uncomfortable and not a good feeling but still dying for it. And I did not sleep well last night.
3) Now after the dump I am a bit saddened about being rejected but I kind of have a serine feeling. Like now I have nothing to hide and I am not doing any wrongs.
4) Why do I only resort to GYE when it flops for me?? Like I only realize the wrong when I get dumped? is that normal?

Overall I am right now just an emotional wreck with so many feelings hitting me at once. But I hope I can finally give my full attention to my wife.

Been there done that, the deeds and the feelings afterwards (my strongest MO is building relationships with other married frum women).

What can I say, I relate to the feeling of being crushed and rejected, but serine is not something I ever experienced even after hearing the "I really don't want to do this anymore" line (only to get a "Hi" text message 2 days later....). I did act out and felt horrible and even suicidal afterwards, but like a true addict I kept on running back, even when my wife was available and even to women who weren't half as beautiful as my wife, man I'm sick. Tflms

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Last Edit: 19 Dec 2016 20:41 by YidFromMonsey.

Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 19 Dec 2016 20:43 #300407

Watson OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1280 Karma: 85	waydown wrote on 19 Dec 2016 20:26: some were very on point some not relevant to me and #7 is exactly the opposite of what i sought. I'm not sure what the opposite is, but thank you for reading the list.
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Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 19 Dec 2016 21:08 #300411

YidFromMonsey Current streak: 1653 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 189 Karma: 15	Watson wrote on 16 Dec 2016 14:59: Welcome back. I hope you get all the support you need. Just wondering, what do you make of this: www.slaafws.org/download/core-files/Characteristics-of-Sex-Love-Addiction.pdf (No pressure but check out the second link in my signature if you feel so inclined). Watson, This describes me about 98% accurate.
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Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 12 Jan 2017 13:34 #302942

Markz OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 8281 Karma: 427	I am Back After a Long Leave Time to turn a new leaf?
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Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 14 Mar 2017 14:18 #308142

Markz OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 8281 Karma: 427	Waydown, I been thinking about you Have you been watching your back recently
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Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 20 Mar 2017 22:10 #308672

waydown OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 670 Karma: 7	No I am a total emotional wreck although no new "averious" its still very bad both spritully and physically.

Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 20 Mar 2017 22:19 #308674

Markz OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 8281 Karma: 427	waydown wrote on 20 Mar 2017 22:10: No I am a total emotional wreck although no new "averious" its still very bad both spritully and physically. I feel for you brother We are always here for you Thanks for checking back in
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Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 21 Mar 2017 03:27 #308697

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Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 23 Mar 2017 17:40 #308977

stillgoing OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1700 Karma: 157	cordnoy wrote on 21 Mar 2017 03:27: Me2 Me 3 I don't know if it was the mods, or just a mistake to begin with, but it's nice to see it gone. Way, are you gone too? Just post a joke. Just say hi. Just keep in touch. (Btw, it seems that the jokes don't even have to be funny, so you don't have that excuse )
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Re: I am Back After a Long Leave Of Absence 23 Mar 2017 18:21 #308983

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stillgoing wrote on 23 Mar 2017 17:40:

cordnoy wrote on 21 Mar 2017 03:27:

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I don't know if it was the mods, or just a mistake to begin with, but it's nice to see it gone.

Way, are you gone too? Just post a joke. Just say hi. Just keep in touch. (Btw, it seems that the jokes don't even have to be funny, so you don't have that excuse

)

Nice to see what gone?

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