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I'm done 29 Dec 2015 23:47 #272754

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I'm done. I fell again. I'm so tired of this. I also realized that it's been 2 years since it all started to get out of control. I don't wanna spend 10 more years like this. So that's why I'm done. I've tried everything that's in my mind to try to stop it, but now I realize that I always tried to keep a little control over the situation, always tried to manage things my way...but now I just understand this: we are addicts in recovery we can't fight it, we can't play around with it, WE JUST CAN'T It's only about surrendering. I can't heal if i keep giving in little sips of my drug. I can't heal if I'm holding my breath until the next triggering situation. Only by surrendering to Hashem I'm gonna be able to heal, not to fight lust or to become superman, just heal from all the garbage I'm dragging, and through that, be at peace with myself.

If you are struggling or about to fall, give this a thought, I hope this could help someone

Re: I'm done 29 Dec 2015 23:50 #272755

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Re: I'm done 30 Dec 2015 00:12 #272761

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aaron73 wrote:
I'm done. I fell again. I'm so tired of this. I also realized that it's been 2 years since it all started to get out of control. I don't wanna spend 10 more years like this. So that's why I'm done. I've tried everything that's in my mind to try to stop it, but now I realize that I always tried to keep a little control over the situation, always tried to manage things my way...but now I just understand this: we are addicts in recovery we can't fight it, we can't play around with it, WE JUST CAN'T It's only about surrendering. I can't heal if i keep giving in little sips of my drug. I can't heal if I'm holding my breath until the next triggering situation. Only by surrendering to Hashem I'm gonna be able to heal, not to fight lust or to become superman, just heal from all the garbage I'm dragging, and through that, be at peace with myself.

If you are struggling or about to fall, give this a thought, I hope this could help someone


If you feel done, then do every thing it takes to get sober.
It's a good siman and don't give up
 *  NO, It's not all or nothing, just every bit counts!
 *  I failed yesterday, and I might fail tomorrow. But just for today I'm going to give it a try.
 *  Being curios made me lust and get into trouble.
אָמַר רבי יוחנן: אֵבֶר קָטָן יֵשׁ לוֹ לָאָדָם, מַרְעִיבוֹ = שָׂבֵעַ, מַשְׂבִּיעוֹ = רָעֵב

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Re: I'm done 30 Dec 2015 00:31 #272763

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WELCOME! there is hope for you, as there is for everyone. i relate to those feelings.
If you're an LGBTQ or LGBTQ-questioning person and looking for someone who can understand you, feel free to reach out. I promise no judgement and to try and listen the best I can. 

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Re: I'm done 30 Dec 2015 01:28 #272767

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Sometimes it's also about if and how we get up after we fall... Stand tall and put one foot in front of the other:)

Re: I'm done 30 Dec 2015 06:19 #272795

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www.guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/236327-Bigmoish-tries-to-be-good
www.guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/236329-Bigmoishs-path-to-tahara

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