Benavraham

We can't stress this enough. If you were a bad person you would not be here on this site. You would be somewhere surfing and m**ing to your hearts content.

Why come here?

The people who come here come because they are good people, in fact although I can't prove this I think that a good percentage of the people here outside of this issue are respected as better then average members of their respective communities.

These people have a problem a serious problem that they want to beat more then anything else in the whole world. Granted they have ended up in this mess due to their own failings and shortcomings. They, however, regret their actions and desperately want to be free of this addiction.

You my friend are a good person (say it 10 times)

You have a flaw that you are aware of and are working on correcting and you are making progress. You didn't beat it in one shot (Shock of shocks) but progress you have made.

Of course, if you want you can decide that all is lost, you're a jerk, loser, reincarnation of the satan, break up with your girlfriend and stay in your bed all day moping about your sorry life, etc.

That will help.