So I am a nice guy who is very sick.

I have this thing that I want to Google and look up online. I have all kinds of reasons why I need to check this out. Now all of you know that is nonsense and the real reason I need to look this up online is that I am nuts and am trying to fool myself into thinking that I 'need' this. That is of course a reason to look at stuff I should not.

I wanted to share this so I might not look.

Thank you.

Hey!!!! Yesher Koach for looking after yourself!!

Try to install a filter. If you know you'll carry out the search, you have to stop yourself. (If you have an iphone you can create parental restrictions and give the password to a friend. If you need an excuse not to be embarrassed, just tell him that your rabbi told you you have to hve a filter).

But beyond the filter, get to the core of the issue; don't just keep yourself away, but work on keeping away from the temptation in the first place. (make sure to look thru the resources on this site, there are MANY!!).
Most of all, though, don't stay alone and don't stay bored!

Much Hatzlacha!!!

Thanks for sharing

I could've written that myself, but my mind doesn't even go so far as to tell me that I need it, it just says "why not"......

Are you kidding me?! why not?! How about because A) why yes? B ) This could set in motion something that will take a whole lot out of my life!!

But that answer doesn't always come so quickly, and I need to reach OUT to let it sink IN!

KUTGW!! KOT!!

WOW! very good to reach out BEFORE you search. Good job!

You are correct, Do we really need this? In fact, does it really give us pleasure? Furthermore: is it ruining our lives? Some very important questions.

But i agree with Optimistic, get to the core of the issue, the underlying reasons why you are sick. Then work to get healthy!

KOL! KEEP ON LIVING!

thanks for the response all you guys.

I did not fall then, but last night I did slip.

Better late than never! (meaning it would have been better had you reached out before slipping)

Now, more than ever, is when we need to be open and honest with someone about ourselves. When I am in danger zone I need to make sure that I am taking the necessary precautions. Slipping is a sure sign of a danger zone, it is in essence acting out on my lust just less extreme!

When I see that though, the "red alerts" have to start ringing really loud and I need a two pronged approach, defensive and offensive. I need to make sure that even though I am lusting that I don't act out, and I need to try and attack the base of why I am lusting!!

so if you can get in touch with someone who you can be entirely open to, then do that! If not, then use this awesome forum for a substitute until you find that person (or those people).

KOT!! KOP!!

I love that opening post. Yes welcome to the madhouse, where we are all constantly trying to convince ourselves that killing ourselves is really the best thing we can do, that there is no harm. We won't die after all, all you are doing is slashing your wrists, what's the harm in that.

MBJ
WHOAH! Thats awfully depressing but a very interesting way to look at. MBJ try not to get too down!

It was more depressing all the years I thought I was a hopeless Baal Avaira.

dms1234 wrote:


Just an extreme metaphor, I am not considering killing myself.

dear sparky,

get a grip on yourself. you are going to fight back. listen to the advice given by the chevra above.
you gotta reach out to others, and you gotta reach in to yourself, and you gotta beg the good Lord for mercy. realise this is your life, and it is in your hands to take the next step.

oh mbj, that is good you not going to commit suicide. i was just beginning to like you, and if you promise to behave from now on, then you can consider me your friend.