ok ok.
still in NY. hope to go back home soon. have been struggling with accepting life on G-ds terms with the result being occasional falls. B"H i havent been staying down. i was at a meeting today and the thought went through my mind how much worse off i could be and how much worse off ive been in the past. my ego has been taking hits from my not staying clean but i dont feel that im being complacent. could i be doing better? yes could i be doing worse? yes but guess what? all i have is exactly how im doing! when i start my day with an inventory at night and giving myself over to Hashem in the morning everything works out. when i dont give my day over to Hashem.... Hashem lets me try and run my life with the inevitable result that i run back to Him.

so this news is a couple of weeks old but.....




i had some things i was going to add that i though were inspiring but for some reason my brains not working. im gonna go to sleep.
have a great shabbos everyone

Maaaaaazzzzzzzzaaaaaaaaaaallllllllll Toooooooovvvvvvvvvvv!!!!!!!

May you be zoche to have a rebbetzin who's proud of her husband's torah and yiras shomayim.

Mazel Tov! I don't know what she looks like (and it's none of my business), but based on your own picture, you probably got the better part of the deal.

Hatzlacha

MT

MAZAL TOV!

MAZEL TOV!!!!! I'm so excited for you!!! May you and your kallah be zoche to much brach v'hatzlacha and build a bayis neeman b'yisroel l'sheim ul'sifares!!

may you both have a long happy life, full of joy and unity

Mazel Tov!

May you build a binyan adei ad!

Mazel tov!

hey all, BH life is crazy. lots of planning and details and such.

i am looking for someone who has and is working SA 12 steps to be in touch with. if such persons could PM me for further contact info that would be great

was feeling overwhelmed, than i remembered duvid chaims "turn the got-to's into get-to's"

Thank you Hashem for everything. with out You i am nothing. thank You for giving me so much Blessing in my life. Blessings beyond my wildest dreams. Thank You for the opportunity to start building a home. Thank You that the million and one things that i have to take care of are for my wedding and for my life after. i have been davvening for this for so long. Thank You for putting such amazing people into my life.

this list could go on forever and it still wouldnt be complete.
may we all be blessed to be able to see how blessed we are

We are feelin' your void.

How goes it?

Hi all. I could offer a million and one exuses for being away but I'm not going to. I'll let you guys do that for me.

BH life has been good. There have been struggles and ups and downs but thats part of being alive. The amazing thing for me is that Im learning to ask for help just a little bit earlier than i used to. I'm so incredibly blessed to have relationships with some amazing people from this site.
The recent events in Eretz Yisrael have been very challenging. I spent erev simchas torah crying. Than I called a friend. He told me that he has no answers for me because he doesn't think that there are answers, At least not until Moshiach comes, but that I should remember that I am not the only one with questions. When I went to shul I looked around me and got out of myself enough to realize that other people are hurting as well. I put my arms around their shoulders and started dancing. I still felt like crying but I no longer felt alone. By sharing my pain and allowing myself to share others pain I got the strength not to deal with the pain but to feel it. The energy that I felt on simchas torah is undescribeble. I felt more focused, less helpless. I still don't understand and it still hurts but I think the lesson was learned. Reaching out to friends doesn't necessarily make the pain go away but when we share it we can get the strength to feel it and maybe even use it.
May Hashem bless all of us with the coming of the days when there will be no more pain

Today was incredibly tough. The situation here is terrifying. My wife was afraid to go to work. I sank into despair.
Being married on one hand is the most amazing thing because I have someone to share with, on the other hand when I can't deal with what I'm feeling it's still very difficult for me to open up and I end up sinking inside myself. The first step that I found I have to take is admit my emotions to myself.
I'm scared. I'm frustrated. I'm angry.
I'm frustrated and angry with Hashem.
I've been thinking about the tochacha alot in the past few days. Hashem is really putting us through the ringer right now. I think about how hard things are and how angry and sad I am now. And underneath that, once I've admitted my feelings to myself and accepted that I have them, is a tremendous desire for a relationship with Hashem. I want a connection. A real connection. Not lip service. I try and pour my energy into that desire. Hashem, please end this lesson. Please save your people.

nitzotzeloki wrote:


The post kinda switched between you and klal yisroel.

There should be hatzlachah to all.

Expressin' to oneself is good....to another is even better.