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Re: For how long by now? 07 Aug 2012 23:12 #143122

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What are the two s-h-i-t-os?
(I've been waiting for a chance to use that word ;D )
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"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
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Re: For how long by now? 08 Aug 2012 08:42 #143138

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RT wrote on 07 Aug 2012 20:47:

Why warped ? plz explain.

It's wrong because we have no way of knowing Hashem's cheshbonos. This is in fact a symptom of an addict, an addict must feel he's in control at all times, and likes to see prompt results [as a matter of fact, a while back I told a Graphic Designer friend that my approach to graphics and marketing is; minimal effort, maximum results.] he therefore finds it extremely difficult to understand that the concept of "Erech Apayim" is real. Let me tell you something: Hashem's mercy is infinite "Der Basheffer loveth mich eibig!" and now for a Matisyahu quote [whether we agree with its original context or not. [quote]I recently realized that God’s mercy, how can that possibly be connected to me shaving or not?”[/quote] See Here.

Hashem is a loving father, we just need to know how to read his love. Let me tell you something else: Hashem repays sinners with good on this world, so that on the next world they can ROT IN HELL. So maybe the opposite is true, as long as you were sinning, you knew you'll get a "nice wife". But now, maybe in Hashem's love for you, you'll get a "not nice wife" to atone for your sins so that you can ENJOY PARADISE TO THE FULLEST.

Whaddevah, I love you too.
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: For how long by now? 08 Aug 2012 11:04 #143143

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Hm, Tz, I agree with you fully. I think thats lemayse what I've meant. under a "good wife" I understand a wife which is fitting to me. bein ezer bein kenegdo, but fitting. with hashgocha! not wehalachti imachem bekeri, chas veshalom.

now its much clearer to me, shkoach.



ps: which two shitos? for how long i am clean? well, one is mine and one is that of the 90days chart.

Re: For how long by now? 08 Aug 2012 18:38 #143181

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hm. the "kichsaos" should say in fact "shitos"... cant modify it...(for some very unclear reason)

Re: For how long by now? 08 Aug 2012 18:41 #143182

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Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
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The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
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Re: For how long by now? 08 Aug 2012 18:56 #143183

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loltz...
its not the word "shi-ta" which is censored, its just the first 4 letters ...

Re: For how long by now? 08 Aug 2012 21:58 #143186

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You know you've been on GYE for a while when....

...you figure out how that works (and how to have fun with it) ;D
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"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
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Re: For how long by now? 08 Aug 2012 23:35 #143195

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I was just on 80 days which is the longest that I had done in 6 years and then I fell (and then over that day a bunch more) and now I just feel exhausted

Re: For how long by now? 09 Aug 2012 01:36 #143197

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Nebulamud!! Wow!! You are back!

I missed you, I missed your bizarre and cute username...and I just missed the point of your post. Oh, you feel exhausted after falling. Right...so:

Please tell me -

Is the exhaustion you refer to from your fall, or is the exhaustion from those 80 days of relentless fighting against your obsession/habit?
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: For how long by now? 09 Aug 2012 18:31 #143292

hi guys how are you.bh im having quite qualitively good sobriety over the last three days besides a slleepy fall which doesnt count...i st wonder whats with those times you wake up half conscious do you actually have choice at all at that time...you are concsious of whats happening but its like being conscious of st outside....any thoughts???

Re: For how long by now? 09 Aug 2012 18:37 #143294

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tocontrolmyself wrote on 09 Aug 2012 18:31:

hi guys how are you.bh im having quite qualitively good sobriety over the last three days besides a slleepy fall which doesnt count...i st wonder whats with those times you wake up half conscious do you actually have choice at all at that time...you are concsious of whats happening but its like being conscious of st outside....any thoughts???

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Re: For how long by now? 09 Aug 2012 19:06 #143298

Seriously TZ how do you manage to find the quote for everything?? Its gotten to a point when its just scary

Re: For how long by now? 09 Aug 2012 19:13 #143299

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28 days.

Rabboysay, my grandfather just shared with me a nice poem. Here you go:
(in the original, its much better)

A flower which doesn't have a fragrance, what a shame to use a garden for it.
A person which doesn't have a mind, what a shame to have a conversation with him.
A heart which doesn't have pain, what a shame to use a body for it.
A head which doesn't believe [in haShem], what a shame to use tachrichin for it.

Re: For how long by now? 09 Aug 2012 19:15 #143301

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If somebody wants to have a nice shiur, pm me your eMail. It's actually a VERY good shiur.

Re: For how long by now? 09 Aug 2012 19:59 #143309

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JustKeepGoing wrote on 09 Aug 2012 19:06:

Seriously TZ how do you manage to find the quote for everything?? Its gotten to a point when its just scary





Reb TZ: B'Mchilas Kvoid Toirosoi, I know, you know Gantz GYE B'al Peh, with Rashi And Tosfos and the Pirush Rav Dov and the Chidushei Bards...In fact if I stuck a pin through the server you could tell me which byte on every thread it went through... ??? ??? : : ;D ;D

?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?
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