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Unbelievable 10 Dec 2008 14:29 #1244

  • poshut yid
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I just did a cheshbon looking at one bank account of mine that I spent approx $3,026 going to mekomos metunafos over the last year!!
How could I be so blind. It is amazing to me that the yetzer is so strong that I could blow so much money and not even make a cheshbon!! The irony is that I thought in my head that I was going less than in previous years. I must have thrown away over $50,000 over the last 10 years. Imagine how that could have made a difference in the life of my wife and kids. I wouldn't have to always say no when the kids want something. Imagine how much tzedokkah I could have given. OY!!!
The harder thing to do is to make a cheshbon of time. How much time have I wasted in the last year. Almost every day, several hours.
Woe is me. How can these things be recaptured!! What a tremendous BITUL !!!!
P.Y.
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Re: Unbelievable 10 Dec 2008 14:35 #1245

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you are an honest person.you passed yesterday even though you were worried.
it was the chizuk from this site that helped you - jews caring for fellow jews.i know i sound like a broken record but i gotta tell it like it is.you are on the way!
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Re: Unbelievable 10 Dec 2008 15:48 #1249

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Poshut Yid,

Interesting Cheshbon! I too probably blew that kind of serious money over the past 10 years on all sorts  of Aveiros and could have spent that money better on Tzedakah, taking care of my family etc.

HOWEVER, think of it this way:

Since when we do Teshuva M'Ahava, our Zedonos get turned into Zechuyos, then so too all the money we spent on Aveirah gets turned into money we spent on Tzedaka and Mitzvos!

If that is the case, we gave so much Tzedaka over the past few years! It is the Zechus of all that Tzedaka that has helped me, you and so many others turn our lives around and become better children of our  Father in heaven.

Don't  let the amount of money (or anything else) get you down! Aderabah! Be B'Simcha for how far you have come in such a short time!

Chazak V'Emazt!
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Re: Unbelievable 11 Dec 2008 13:44 #1276

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Holy yid, I know that menuval. He's going to try to convince you that what Mevakesh wrote is exaggerated. But the menuval is a filthy liar, the plain truth is exactly how Mevakesh put it. I just want to add that if you use your experience to help others, which you're already doing, then that alone obviously turns everything in to good.
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