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We wished Mazal Tov to 'Sci1977' on his 90th day clean, which got him onto our Wall of Honor chart. 'Sci1977' follow up by writing on the forum: This morning, I re-read the last page or so of my thread and realized how emotional recovery is. I have closed the door to my ...

Hey everybody, In case you're wondering where I was, I recently decided that the computer is lately the main and central obstacle in my life right now. I have decided to cut the computer out of my life completely (my wife is typing this for me). I haven't touched the comp...

I have almost daily interaction with Rabbonim and Roshei Yeshiva for various reasons. Last night, I attended a wedding in Cleveland together with around 700 others... Anyway, it was a wedding of two powerhouse Rabbinic families, and I used the opportunity to poll the diff...

A while ago I noticed that GYE is helping my Ahavas Yisroel. How? Well, I know that the vast majority of GYE' ers don't come from the same background as I do. They aren't part of the same segment of Klal Yisroel as I am. Since my only connection with them is through stri...

Hello everyone. I don't get a chance to post anymore, but today I finally have a chance. I don't have internet at home, so I have to post from the library. I had internet for a little while because someone in my house needed it, but I got rid of it as soon as I could. So,...

Hi everyone, I think it's quite significant that I will reach 90 on Erev Shavuos. I must say that although I have not posted much, I obviously could not have come this far without stumbling upon this web site. Posting, but even more through reading, has really helped me t...

"JIP", as he is known for short, has had a very painful life. It started when he was molested at the age of nine. See his painful story on this page. Here is what "JIP" wrote when he reached 90 days clean: 90 days! I owe a thank you to everyone for helping me get here, b...

I would like to give a big thank you to GYE. Last week my wife saw the delete history box open on the computer and she asked me if I have been watching stuff again and I told her point blank about my addiction (P..n) and that it has been going on for years.... She was sho...

Day 180 was rather uneventful. On day 90 I had this feeling, "Okay, I made it, what now?" But now I see that there's always deeper levels of dirt to clean off. Higher levels of awareness to reach. Greater levels of freedom to gain. Every day just keeps getting better. I w...

A little cheshbon hanefesh and hakaras hatov likras lel hashloshim that I am clean. It is symbolic that this number which is considered significant in the recovery process, happened to fall out lel pesach sheni. Pesach sheni is the day of a second chance and so is GYE a s...

I think it's time for a 100 DAY CELEBRATION! 100 days into this journey and I'm now seeing that THIS IS NOT BEYOND ME. Cleaning up my act is within my field of vision. Hashem hears my prayers and is saying 'yes.' Thank you, Father! I feel as if I've crossed over some huge...

Rabbi Binyamen Eisenberger Shlita demands that even those that just come to his shul for some shiurim must sign up to the Covenanteyes program with him getting the reports - at his expense! And he saw that I had a problem and confronted me. Even with his warnings, I could...

One year for me. I hesitated to post this for I firmly believe that ONLY the Almighty in His infinite kindness protected me every day and every second of the day, and no kudos are due to me nor are any bravos in order - rather a seudas hodah shall I make. The only reason...

Two days ago, after a night spent feeding my sickness, I stumbled across an ad for this site and suddenly my eyes began to open. There was hope and a way to deal with this. I told myself that Hashem sent me here for a reason, and that reason is to get better. I realized t...

90 days. I'm not really sure what the appropriate thing to say or do right now is. I'm sitting here on my couch with real tears rolling down my cheeks; tears of truth, tears of accomplishment, tears of pride, and tears of immense gratitude to Hashem and to all my "family"...

See Jack's 90-day journey time-line from 3 years ago here. Dear Guard, I'm approaching my 3-year anniversary in 'the struggle'. I can't say I'm perfect, and I've slipped along the way, but only about 5 times in the whole 3 years. What a difference from before I started,...

I was talking to someone recently, and he asked me if I'd really be so bad off if I wasn't involved with GYE and the 12-steps. It's hard to believe that we'd all end up in the gutters so soon that we need to worry about it. I thought that if, instead of the gradual impro...

t's the beginning of June. There are billions of women in the Northern Hemisphere who are putting on their revealing summer clothes for the next few months. This happened last year too. But there are hundreds of Jewish men who are going to guard their eyes much better t...