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One of our Chizuk list members who we've been helping over the past few months, sent us yesterday a beautiful update to his story, which appears here on our site.   I am now clean for 90 days. As expected, the single most important factor in staying clean was and is a co...

For today's e-mail, I want to share an inspiring story that someone sent us. (By the time I had finished reading the story, I was crying).   I first discovered masturbation at about age 15, when a fellow yeshiva student showed me smut. Before hand I had never even conside...

Today, Yaakov is doing fantastically well and is helping us inspire many other strugglers on the forum. Hi, I am new to this forum. I have been reading some of your posts in the past few weeks as I was trying to get acquainted with the site and I have been so inspired. I ...

Not long ago, an amazing warrior joined our ranks. At first, he called himself "Jerusalem addict", but as he got more comfortable in the amazing community on the forum, he started to call himself "Uri". Today everyone on the forum knows and LOVES Uri. He has been fighting...

I want to share today a few wonderful things that have come about for me through this program of 12 steps. I feel like I have not shared in a while and so I will do some "service" and share my "experience, strength and hope." My life has completely changed since I started...

"X-addict" posted on our forum 4 months priviously: Hello, regards from Stamford Hill. I'm 20 years old and have a computer with internet access in my room. I used to be a crazy addict, seriously now, I was, like, the king of p**n, ...

One of the main tactics for me is filling the emptiness with spiritual pursuits. When I actually think about it, I have made such strides and should be dancing in the streets, but the Y"H does wonders in concealing our accomplishments and revealing only ou...

This story/article was written by Aaron, a long time member of our network. In the article, he describes his story and mentions our site. This article will be read by tens of thousands of people hopefully! (Add your comments at the bottom and let everyone know how our net...

"Ovadia" posted on the forum: Hi, I am joining the forum for the first time today. I am married and we have B"H a number of children. I spent ten years in Kollel. After ten years learning, I had to leave full time learning for parnasa reasons and work in an office. The in...

Today is 100 days clean for me, and I would like to try and describe how I got to this point, and how I think I have changed over the past 3 months. I am a thirty something professional living in a large North American city. I attended several yeshivos over the years and ...

RATM writes to someone who was unable to make it more than 3-5 days at a time for the past year or so, yet who still never gave up: You know, this 90 day chart is very, very important to me, and I do think it is very important... When I saw this site and started getting i...

Uri writes to someone who had fallen into addictive behaviors that included live relationships: Hi, my name is Uri.We're coming from the same place, my friend.And you should know that the addiction to porn, masturbation, or sex are all very much from the same place.It is ...

I was born into a very hareidi family... lots of brothers and sisters... my father is a well known posek and Rav... I learned for many years and even started on smicha... Since then, I've never been non-observant, chas veshalom, but I've rejected the seclusion of hareidi ...

... I got older and managed to find easy access to the net for my fix... This carried on until I was 18. I was hardly keeping anything at that point. I was in Israel, clubbing every night and still using p**n as my crutch and getting into deep trouble. I didn't actually d...

Halavei, I should be young. I'll give you a hint to how old I am. I was alive when Nikita Krushef was banging his shoe on the table (I think it was at the UN). If I were a young guy and starting recovery, I would have many more years of good living ahead of me. Instead I ...

I was an addict from a VERY young age (to young for me to remember how old I was) for about 20 years. During that time, I was under constant stress from the addiction and - for most of the years - it totally dominated my life. I would get triggered from something I saw - ...

After much soul searching and deep honesty, I finally feel ready to share this story as I have a little bit of sobriety under my belt (no pun intended) I was trying to write out my story now for about a week, but I had a lot of trouble doing so. I found myself repulsed by...

About 9 months ago, in the throws of the addiction, I woke up one morning feeling that I no longer recognized myself. I don't know what it was, but a terrible sensation tore through me and hit me at the very core. "What happened to me?" I thought. "Where did the old me go...