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When I first heard about getting a filter, I was very resistant. It was about a month or two until my wife and I sat down together, looked through the information and installed K9. One catalyst was my involvement on the forum. Posting messages like, "Woops, just slipped...

"Rage" writes about his first SA meetings: There are moments when I feel that God is trying to snap his fingers at me (perhaps impatiently)... Like the day I went to my first SA meeting. That morning I was like, "am I gonna go? Am I not? How much of a flake will I be ...

I would just like to share with you something incredible which just happened to me.3 days ago it was my 40th day without masturbation and porn. I got a kind of fever, cough, sore mouth and throat and I was generally feeling not so good. At night just as I was saying the S...

I was masturbating before I knew there was anything wrong with it.Going back 20 years, I was exposed to Porn in mags and by phone (who here remembers those business cards and fake dollar bills that the Amaleknik Porn-Pushers Yemach Shemam Vezichram used to scatter all ove...

Dear Reb Guard, I must admit that I have not been reading all the emails that you kindly send out every day but I am doing other work for myself. In February last year, I went to my first SA meeting. It was very embarrassing. It was a huge leap for me, but I thought I cou...

It's been about a year on GYE, and I thought this would be a good time to update what went on the past year. My road to recovery was not as great as expected, with several ups and downs during the year. One particular area which captured me this past year, was using my bl...

I'm writing this to help others, to let them know that they are not alone that it is never too late. Teshuva is Hashem's gift to all of us. There is a way to erase and start a new... I grew up in a non observant "traditional" home. I was pretty much like everyone else in ...

Everybody, not just the famous, has both a public and a private face. Those two versions of ourselves are never completely reconciled, nor would most of us want them to be. Our interior life, our soul, our truest sense of ourselves, whatever you call it, is too difficult ...

I would like to share with you my very sad story, so that you, Rabbis and the Jewish community in general will be able to learn from it. I am what the public calls a truly “Choshuva” “Avreych”, and with all due “modesty” I view myself as such as well. Nevertheless I fell...

I guess it's time for me to relate my story. Some background info will give some context to my story. I am a convert to Judaism of several years now. I was raised nominally xtian and did an extended stint in evangelical type xtianity from college into my 30's. How I e...