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I thank Hashem that I found this supportive and loving group of Neshamot! I am a 50-year-old Jewish man, who is learning to love Hakodesh Baruch Hu through Daily Prayer deepening Torah Study, and the performance of Mitzvot. After watching a video lecture from a Rabbi abo...

I've been struggling for a while with this stuff (I was exposed to it preteen age). It's only very recently that I've actually started making real change and getting better (curiously coinciding with finding this website: wink :) Starting out was a real struggle, even tho...

"NachalNovea" writes on the forum: Hi everyone, I’m not the usual type of guy to be writing on these things but I am clean for over 3 weeks! This includes weekends at home, Coronavirus & being alone with technology for a long time, and many battles. Battles that witho...

I want to thank GYE for the amazing website. I am only into Day 21 and already so many wonderful things have happened (Thank G-d)!!! The resources on the site and the Daily-emails have been invaluable!!! I am so grateful and appreciative that HaShem has led me (and so man...

Dear GYE, Thank you for the wonderful work you do. You have been providing hungry souls like me with the nutrition and encouragement to keep going and keep climbing. I am eternally grateful and pray for your compounding success. My journey was nothing short of a miracle...

Dear brothers and sisters, fellow fighters. It's painful to be a fighter. I know firsthand. But it's also a part of ourselves which will ultimately give us so much inner strength, sensitivity to others, and hopefully real joy. Today, after two weeks of abstinence fro...

I'm on the subway heading to work in Manhattan. It's 77 degrees outside, a beautiful blue-sky day. I'm 7 days clean since the last fall and had 15 days clean before that so I'm in a powerful, strong, uplifted mood as if nothing can break me. We've all had that confident f...

About a week ago, I finally raised the white flag. Indeed, I don’t know how to support my wife through her sex addiction (which has uncovered many other layers of emotional dysfunction). Yesterday was the first time that I went to therapy for myself. While I’d like to ...

So my struggle is all about masturbation in response to my very wild and dirty fantasies. Since I'm the type that lives in my own head, there's always lots of fun and noise in there (usually not bad, btw!) and there's almost always a song playing in the background, as wel...

I started on Recovery when I was busted by my wife. I had been acting out for more than 30 years. That first night after I was busted, I went to sleep and I knew I was in big trouble with my wife. While lying in bed, I imagined myself in Beit Din Shel Mala at the end of m...

My name is Boruch and I'm a regular chasidishe bucher learning in Israel. About a year ago, I read an article in the Mishpacha magazine (Lifelines section) about a man who struggled with internet pornography and found the site called GYE and recovered through it by keep...

Shalom Aleichem to the entire GYE community! I am finally here after my long journey of almost 30 years! Yes, for 30 years I’ve been looking to whom to turn, to tell my story, and still to feel comfortable that nobody finds out what goes on deep inside me. I have had no l...

A newby to GYE wrote to us: When I first wrote my story on the GYE forum, I was crying, shocked and disgusted with myself. I felt I couldn't fall any further- rock bottom's the word! But fast forward no less than 3 weeks, and I fell again. And this time even further tha...

Two days ago I was feeling totally filled up with lust. I was downtown all afternoon with some stuff to do and a lot of waiting in between. I made the mistake of wandering into a book store to pass the time. I was on guard against the magazine racks, but the regular best...

I was hitting puberty in the early 2000's. The world was still in an uproar over the supposed second coming of Yoshke, which never materialized. I was young, stupid and innocent. And I was curious. Things started happening to my body, my mind was going in different direct...

On our site we brought some rants (here) from a non-Jew who found that his addiction to masturbating was preventing him from going out to meet women and so he decided to try to stop completely. He opened a blog to keep track of his progress and I bring you here some more ...

Here are some excerpts from an inspiring story recently posted on our forum After G-d placed me at the crossroads, and i found myself having to confront my demons, that I have been hesitant (or perceived as unable ) to confront, I went on a drive to clear my mind.I shut ...

A member on the forum called "Tahor" posted: I am in my 40's. My second marriage. My first ended because of multiple affairs. At that time, I spent hour upon hour in Torah study. I attended the place of assembly regularly (SA groups). I formed small groups of men for acco...