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I would like to share an amazing story of Hashgacha Pratis, that I've recently had with one of the GYE members. We were reviewing the messages in our support system, and I came across an old message from a few months ago that was waiting for a reply. I replied to the mes...

Hi. I just wanted to share an unbelievable story that happened to a good friend of mine. We were both struggling mightily in shemiras habris and shemiras einayim and we started a 40 day program to try to give us chizuk. You have to understand that he hadn’t been clean for...

I want to thank GYE for the amazing website. I am only into Day 21 and already so many wonderful things have happened (Thank G-d)!!! The resources on the site and the Daily-emails have been invaluable!!! I am so grateful and appreciative that HaShem has led me (and so man...

A few months ago, I was very down. I had just broken my longest clean streak of 194 days. For 8 days, I rolled in the filth, and then decided to get myself back up again, and try for the 2nd round of 90 days clean.

I have been struggling with shmutz on the Internet. I was addicted to personals ads on a well-known site for years. I used to talk to women, send pictures, and sometimes even meet up with them.

A man from a city in southern Eretz Yisroel had a daughter critically ill in the hospital. The doctors had all but given up on her. They advised that they will make the last-ditch attempt with a dangerous chemo - but the hospital was out of it. The father was sent to a p...

R' Avraham Alter ran a Yeshiva in Chicago for many years. He worked together with Baalei Teshuva. There was one fellow who was straddling the fence for a number of years. R' Avraham very much wanted this fellow to make a commitment. And he told the fellow, "You got to do ...

One Shabbat, there was a man who came to the synagogue of Rabbi Berel Wein, in the Rechavia section of Jerusalem, accompanied by his three young sons, whom it turned out were of the ages 9, 7 and 5. Even with their long peiyot, they didn’t look Jewish with their stunning ...

A woman wrote to us: I got rid of my computer last year because I felt it was a constant distraction, and rather than addressing everything I needed to, I was distracting myself. But to do that meant quitting my job - which was an easy, work from home well-paying positi...

"Avi Ha'Oved" wrote in this amazing story (translated from an email we received in Hebrew): For many years after the wedding, we didn't have children. We did tests and discovered that the chances for me to be able to ever have children were close to zero. The doctor (who,...

I get a Mazal Tov, I had a baby boy now, and it's a miracle of GYE! Let me tell you the story in short: About a year and a half ago, when I first came to your site, I had 5 daughters and no sons. I met a partner on GYE with 5 boys and no girls. We became very close an...

I’ve been clean from shmutz and self-pleasuring for close to 10 years now, but shmiras einayim is something I still struggle with, with ups and downs every few weeks, months, etc. Lately, I’ve been in a bit of a down. Not that the behaviors became worse, but I recently re...

One of my favorite sayings is, "We have to realize and appreciate the s'char for being moser nefesh for the Ribono Shel Olam when dealing with this struggle: that Shomayim will, in turn, be moser nefesh for us." Recently, I had three days in a row where the going was rou...

It's been hard recently. My wife and I have been "off" for about six weeks due to a change in medication, and it's been hard. I stumbled with computer stuff once or twice but I picked myself up and started again. I find it's about keeping to my own rules. If I am meikel,...

A woman wrote to us, asking for chizuk in face of a challenge she was facing. She wrote: A family friend from overseas called me and asked if we can meet up. I don't know if I ever told you about this family "friend" but that's basically how every SA issue that I have ...

One Motzai Shabbos I was lusting pretty hard and I felt needed to watch some Shmutz, but I didn't have a smartphone. So I went to a store near me (the only one that was opened that late) and picked a smartphone that I wanted to buy, but it was out of stock. I tried the ne...

As I was reading through some of the hashgacha pratis stories on this site, I was inspired to share an amazing story that happened to me a couple of years ago. Baruch Hashem, I have done sincere teshuva for my old ways and would never find myself in this situation again,...

Something happened a few minutes ago that I thought was amazing: I was about to fall. It was after a long day of temptation, at about 11:15PM, and as I was about to start acting out, I heard someone try the handle of my front door! I immediately ran upstairs to tell my ...