It seems like it takes forever on this chart to move from one level to the next.

WHAT!!! I'M ONLY ON DAY 6!!!  It feels like my last fall was weeks or months ago!

I wonder if before I was keeping score, perhaps I just thought I was doing better than I really was.  HEY, IT'S ONLY ONCE EVERY TWO OR THREE MONTHS!!!  Could it have really been once every couple of weeks?

I don't say any of this to get depressed.  Rather, to point out the importance of keeping track of your progress.

I really am looking forward to making it to a whole week... and then two... and then...

It's very motivating.

Reb Eye,
Check out Dov's post yesterday to Momo... saying that he couldn't ever do 90 days... he just does one day... and he's been doing it straight for over 11 years now!!!
That was the most inspiring thing I've heard, in a long time!
kutan

Just reached day 7; clean for a whole week.

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great!
Have you seen Dov's latest posts?
One of them is in Uri's thread. He promises anyone who reads it that they are a tzadik...
kutan

kutan shel hachabura wrote on 12 Aug 2009 13:27:


Hey, that sounds like something that Reb Guard should snatch for one of the daily Chizuk E-mails.

Somehow my last streak was 9 days, but I thought it was 12.

On my new streak I just made it to 10.

I had an unusual dream last night.  I dreamt that I almost had an accident, but then I stopped myself because I wanted to keep up the clean streak.

When I woke up, the dream was still quite vivid, and I managed not to fall because of it (the first part of it).

I had a slip a couple of days ago, but it was definitely a slip--something completely unexpected and completely out of my control.

I find this very liberating to distinguish between slips and falls.  No need to eat yourself up over something that's not your fault.

Nevertheless, I've found one more thing to look out for in the future.  Not to be caught off-GUARD.

It seems that there were really only two or three situations where I tend to fall, BUT these situations come up quite frequently.  AND, I can't avoid them (just taking a shower would sometimes be challenging).

I used to feel THIS YEITZER IS SO HARD, I CAN'T KEEP FIGHTING IT.

Now I've been thinking, "I'll only be here for a few minutes.  I just need to stay clean for a few minutes."  Which doesn't seem so hard.

This has been very helpful.  It puts everything into the right perspective.

Eye.nonymous wrote on 18 Aug 2009 07:27:


RIGHT ON THE MONEY!!!

Don't forget, being at GUE and seeing so many people who were so much worse off, be clean, gives us confidence.

This site is wonderful!

I'm on day 13.

I had another slip.  Definitely a slip.

But, I'm getting a little worried that I'm having so many big slips.

Eye.nonymous wrote on 19 Aug 2009 07:53:


Me TOO!

The secret is getting rid of lusting... its really easy once you do it!

Have you ever tasted that feeling?

k

Don't get worried learn something. If you are slipping then you are missing something in your rcovery life. Either your fences are to close or you lack fullfillment and focus in you life or you should be more invloved in learning about your desiese. Learn something and move on you are on the road.

kutan shel hachabura wrote on 19 Aug 2009 14:58:


Getting rid of lust?  Altogether?  It seems like that is very far off.

Seemed that way to me too.
I promise.
but it is like learning to riding a bike. its not a matter of 'work', its a matter of getting the technique right.
Gotta go now, but I promise it can be done, and is not ' hard work' either. (didn't say it is not 'work')

Search around the forum, read the handbooks.

kutan