There must be an investment of time doing these things... can't expect years of negative investments to go away without the opposite... but the redeeming factor is that this effort will be REALLY enjoyable... once you get into it.

I personally love Berdichev. His unsophisticated way of saying it the way it really is...

The next morning I was working at my computer alone in the house.  I realized the danger of this situation, finished what I was doing, and ran out of the house as quickly as I could.

Usually these thoughts persist, even for weeks, until I eventually lose.

Then, I realized the obvious answer... I HAVE TO sign up for an internet filter.  There's nothing innocent about an addiction, no matter how infrequent the falls may be.  I am now in the process of signing up for K9.

I've more-or-less gotten over the novelty of the filter.  There's no substitute for self-control.  Plus, I added about another fifty URL key words to block.

Also, after finding this forum, I made the mistake of doing too much at once.  I try not to think about this struggle much now.  And, I've picked one of the handbooks to read and only one lessen per day.  Only afterwards I'll look at one of the others.

In addition, the idea to just LET GO OF LUST has been very liberating.  I was trying to figure out what is different between this and trying to avoid the yeitzer.  This is what I have come up with:

I used to feel that when the first thought came to mind or the first sight came into view, you were already engaged in a struggle with the yeitzer hara.  True, you could try to evade him, but the wrestling match had already begun.  Now, it seems more like the first thought or sight is merely the yeitzer hara SENDING AN INVITATION to join him.  He hasn't laid a finger on you yet.

You can just ignore it!

I would be interested to hear from the more experienced members of this forum if this explanation sounds at all accurate.  Thanks.