I'm holding by yeush right now. This battle feels impossible to win. My major problem is motivation. How can all the fences in the world help me when the motivation just isnt there? The fire I used to have in me has gone away. Or at least it went into hiding for a while.

Hi TOF its great to see that u post - just posting is already well on the right journey after all shailos chochom chatzi tshuva!
You say that all the fences won't help you. Its true! If you try everything at once then it becomes very hard to succeed.
However if u take one aspect of ur struggle and concentrate only on that and only after it is completely safe should u move to the next point. And even if u fall never give in to the y"h on that point- you will have your own place on the battlefield where the y"h can't get to you!
Slowly slowly it will get bigger until you with Hashem's help will have succeeded completely!
Please read the ebook the first day me my life which can be downloaded from the main website- it deals with this issue and was very helpful to me!
Please keep posting- we want to hear about your holy firedike battle with the y"h and how ur gonna beat him!

Hi Tired,

Believe it or not, everyone on this site has felt that same yeush hundreds of times. And sometimes I wonder if I'm going to ever beat this or not, especially after I fell recently hard after 76 days which was crushing to me, but the truth is that I recognize that there is no livable alternative to beating it, so I resolve to go at it one day at a time.

We're here for you, and the drinks are always on me

ok I haven't made a serious attempt at the 90 days for a while but I'm going to start trying again. This is day 1.

Glad to hear it...how does it feel?

it feels good

I feel good, too. Hey, let's start a club! 

Have a nice Shabbos TOF!

I'm repeating this again and again, because I think it's so important - yes, being clean feels good. Focus on that, remember that, celebrate that!

Have a great shabbos!