I didn’t hear from you. Did you reach out to anyone else? 

I did reach out had a nice opener conversation it’s good to know I have numbers to call when I need help. Today I’m going to call Hhm and maybe start a 30 day challenge again. I need a little jumpstart to get myself going in the right direction. Thanks for the replies and chizzuk it really helps. 

Mazel tov!!!!
You took charge your mamash a chizuk.
Making the phone call is so hard, but once you start talking you cant believe you were even scared.

Long time no post.
Little update, I had a 29 day streak then I fell now I’m at day 10 BH I feel like I’m getting somewhere and with my strengthens filter I don’t have access to what I had acces to before. Still have had urges and probably will but 1. Don’t have a easy way to act out and 2. I know I can call and take care of it. Very comforting to know that you can speak about it when you have an urge and aren’t fighting a silent battle. I will keep this up and Nissan the Chodesh hageula should only bring more geulah. 

Day 16 
I feel a lot more in control these days. I think mainly because When I have access to inappropriate content, this little voice in the back of my mind has a road mapped out for when I want or have an urge to act out and a “end goal” meaning even if it’s only a small hole with “not such bad pictures” or the like I know I can go there. Now that these are closed up I don’t have this little voice telling me where to go because there is no where to go when it’s not really an option.

My issue is I feel like my days have been getting emptier and I have more time on my hands I don’t know if it has to do with the streak or whatever, maybe it’s that feeling when pesach break is soon but it’s not quite there, and I’ve been noticing myself spending more time on my phone not doing anything productive and trying to numb the feeling of nonaccomplishment with any random thing on my phone. And less engaged with people around me, for example even with a bunch of friends having a good time, I notice myself  checking my WhatsApp’s a billion times even tho I know nothing important is there ( usually I’m a very social guy and would be a big part in the conversation). Also I have been on  YouTube (on a computer in a public place and filterd) and it’s just gives me a bad feeling like I’m substituting acting out but I’m left with a more empty feeling confusion and general disengagement. I don’t know the solution but just getting it off my chest. 
End rant.
Any ideas

Just had a thought. Maybe it could be that when I was doing P &M (funny to say was in past tense, but we’ll leave it). I had a koch, I was obsessed and either looking for ways around my filter or obsessed with being upset that I’m obsessed but now I’ve been apathetic to it and feel empty. I probably need to get a new Koch in something that I can obsess about. Could be im way off the mark.

Shalom Brother,

Great to hear that you are good and feeling good.

Finding koach in a new, healthy outlet sounds like a great idea. What interests you?

As far as checking WhatsApp (or anything else an excessive number of times - like the news), it's a good first step that you are aware of the distraction and how it is affecting you. Maybe you can turn your phone off, leave it in your car or out of reach, give it to a friend, temporarily turn off the data (does WhatsApp need data?), use parental controls to block the app for 30 minutes at a go. You could also ask a closer friend to gently nudge you if they see you taking out your phone too much and remind you to put it away. 

I can relate to struggling with this. It helped me tremendously to mute all statuses. If it dings, I have a message - otherwise nothing is happening. I also left some "chattier" groups that were not essential. 

Hatzlacha and Kol Tov

Sounds like a withdrawal matsiv  and like you Said your substituting p m with something else hence you don't have a good substitution so your just searching...   Gotta find something to be productive with

My service doesnt work now so I can’t text my updates to HHM so I will post here instead so i have accountability. Probably won’t be long posts. 
Day 22 and 23 were great not surprised that I can do it because I’ve done long streaks before but this time will hopefully be different. 

Day 24 was great in middle of day 25 which is also going great getting ready for pesach and staying busy

Day 25 was awesome and still going strong. 

good