Day 3 fell on Friday. Kinda rough but will be better. Fixing it up 

Nice keep it short and simple when u need to.

Keeping going man.

Day 4 
Got a mosquito bit and realized it exactly like and urge. 
At first you don’t really notice it and start itching then you notice oh I have a mosquito bite. If you itch it when it’s a little itchy it goes away for a second after a couple seconds it comes back then when you itch it it gets more itchy and itch it again it gets worse and worse. 
Same with urges first I don’t even notice I have an urge and then the process of slipping falls if I notice I’m having the early stages of an urge it’ll be so much more efficient than trying to only stop once it’s so itchy. 
And how do you stop the mosquito bit. For me it’s mainly doing something which takes my full attention away from it till I forget abt it. Not focusing on not itching.

Day 5
had some urges yesterday but stayed strong. 

Day 6 
Week flew by. Great day yesterday and today will be too. 

Day 10 
had such a slip motzei Shabbos wow. Crazy. Bh I stopped in the yellow circle but wasn’t to be proud of. The next morning I was thinking to myself it’s such a slip maybe I should consider it a fall and go all the way and restart. Really was considering it but bepoel I updated my tracker to not a fall and I think it’s better this way now I can’t say screw it I’ll start Tomorrow.

I don’t know why recently I have been having so much stronger urges like constant thoughts and feelings. I think it’s an opportune time to practice not giving in and realizing they’re just fleeting feelings but sometimes it’s hard. Questioning my motivation and my reasons for change. 

My Main thought that keeps on giving me a hard time is “ I already have seen it, what’s the point, I have the images in my head forever. Even if I don’t fall till I get married IYH, I will live with these images in my mind till the grave”. 

Day 11 
Going well. was watching a Flight to freedom video and it was talking abt recycling through the stages in an upward spiral I really think I have been growing a lot and it has been getting better but I think I’m back at contemplation stage I need to remember and bring my reasons for change more to my focus for a bit I haven’t thought abt them for a while. I’m going to do that exercise again. Also If anyone has places it talks abt this plz share. 

Day 12 

Day 16
Going well. 2-3 week hurdle have to be extra vigilant. The urges come in fast and unexpected need to be ready for them. 

Listen to today's וימאן. Great perspective on changing how we view these challenges. Instead of looking at each urge and fight as a nisoyon look at it as an opportunity to do a מצוה. Remember to check in at the end of a day,  week or month and think about the number of successes you have accumulated for every urge that you fight off ( you have probably lost count over a 16 day period)!

Keep up the fight!!!

Wow you are so right. Need to constantly try to change my perspective not what I’m used to at all.
Day 17 
Excited to go into shavous doing the right thing and working on this. 

Fell last night. A bunch of triggers at the same time really a mess coulda done better.
starting shavous soon kabolas hatorah  will hopefully be a good continuation and a boost to have a great summer.

Always rooting for you man keep going 

Fell last night. 
Day 1.
when I reach day 14 gonna reward myself. If you see this and see my forum in 14 days remind me. 

funbuchur wrote on 16 Jun 2024 16:51:

Wow! Kudos!

Will do!