Day #9. Staying accountable. 

Day #11. Daily post. Proud of myself.

You should be 

Fell. In short, started working from home today--on my unfiltered work device--in part to deal with a property damage issue. It was stressful. No excuse, but alas... I have already resumed my plan of locking my unfiltered devices in my car overnight. This is a one and done. Not letting this spiral out of control.

Recommitting myself to my resolve to stop viewing pornography and masturbating.

I hope to post here daily and text one of my GYE contacts daily. I use unfiltered devices for work and may even have to take my filter off my computer at home for a few months. My goal is to post or text before using an unfiltered device to pledge to stay clean and then post or text afterwards to report success.

שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 26 Jan 2023 05:52:

Nice to hear from you, a buddy from the old days. Keep strong!! Iv'e grown from you.

Good to "see" you again, good luck and keep inspiring us!

Day #1.
Thank you for the replies and "thank yous." Here for my daily post.

I have been struggling over the last few months. "Struggling" isn't the right word. I have been passive. I haven't pushed back. In the last months, I have been using my unfiltered work device to view pornography. Part of me justified my passivity because I am in the process of switching jobs and I won't have these work devices (not a good justification, but that is what happened...). Last night, however, I found that I needed to remove the filter from my personal device for a school reason. At that moment, I realized that the filter cannot make or break my struggle with pornography and masturbation. That gave me the resolve to reignite my motivation to stop looking at pornography and stop masturbating. 

I exchanged texts with HHM this morning and came up with a plan. In short, I am going to be in communication with someone to whom I can have accountability before and after my unfiltered computer use. I will also have a reasonable cut off time for when the devices need to be shut down.

Another thing that I am trying to do is to stop using the Internet for an unproductive or no reason. 

Again, I appreciate the support and I look forward to posting my day count on Motzei Shabbos.

Thank you for this honest post. Stay posting, stay on GYE! we are all rooting for you. BH you should have much Hatzlacha and Siyaata Dishmaya.
Wishing you a wonderful shabbos

Day #3. Posting to keep myself connected to you all and accountable. All good.

Dear Tzaddik Hakom, you are an inspiration. To see you going through tests, dealing with each one, figuring out how to get moving, strategizing how to get back on track, you are a gevald!

Sending love right back to you, #Eerie.

Day #5. All good and posting to stay connected and accountable. Busy now, so cannot share a long post, but I do want to share something and hopefully more soon. Also, for those interested in Torah inspiration, I was inspired by the של"ה on פן ינחם at the beginning of this week's פרשה and the קהלת רבה on ארונו של יוסף. I will share both of those when I get a chance.

Day #7. On my way...

Thank you all for reading my thread. Today, I was working from home which has been an area of struggle over the last few months. I proactively reached out to establish some accountability before any urge or nisayon. All good.

שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 02 Feb 2023 02:00:

And Hashem proactively called his malachim to see what kind of children he has...Beautiful!

Day #8.