שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 12 Jun 2023 17:00:

I believe as time goes on, and you become a new version of yourself - not just the same guy who happens not to have given in yet, the feeling of satisfaction will grow.

Keep it up! 

Day #24.

I just had my GenTech filter reinstalled on my computer. I handed in my unfiltered work phone and work laptop on Friday as that was my last day with that employer. The laptop that I got from my new employer has security filtering and monitoring software installed. I am in a very good place when it comes to devices. Having a filter is not a be-all end-all solution, but it certainly helps a lot. It is another barrier. Part of my keeping my guard up plan.

Day #27. Still at it. 

Day #7. I had a few masturbation-only falls. Still haven't looked at pornography since the beginning of my last streak, so over 40 days without looking at that stuff.

Recently, a GYE chaver asked me, "What does a fall consist of for you?"

I don't know what the official rules are, but after some thought, here is what a fall consists of for me. Any or all of the following:

• Searching for illicit material (text, images, videos)--pornographic or non-pornographic--and certainly reading/viewing that material
• Masturbating -- even starting and stopping before it's too late

Again, this is what a fall is for me, but it is helpful for me to make an actual definition. There have been many times throughout this journey when I have justified something as not a fall because I didn't necessarily include that in my undefined concept of a fall. I hope this helps in my struggle, but I also want my clean streak to be pure.

Thanks for reading this and have a good Shabbos.

שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 07 Jul 2023 14:39:

It is good to have a definition, you know exactly what to stay away from. Nothing questionable for the other side to start pushing. At least in theory

I was also machmir, and consider intentionally touching for arousal purpose a fall.
I needed that extra geder.


But the Gye rules are guardyoureyes.com/tools/90-day-chart/rules

What constitutes a "Fall" to require restarting the count?
There are "slips" and there are "falls". "Slips" do not require restarting the count. "Falls" do require restarting.
A "Fall" is one of the following things:

1. Intentional masturbation (with finish)
2. Intentionally viewing improper sites
3. Intentionally calling inappropriate telephone numbers
4. Intentionally seeking out and reading erotica

In regard to number 2 (and 4), if someone saw something by mistake and then got a little bit carried away and kept looking at it, or even if someone saw a link and couldn't resist clicking on it but then catches themselves within a few seconds, that would only be considered a "slip", not a "fall". However, if someone decides to actively pursue viewing, that would be considered a fall.

Day #3. That definition from my previous post has helped me and surprisingly, or maybe not surprisingly, it has helped me be more careful with general shemiras einayim.