Wow, that is a great question! I ask myself that all the time. When I first came here I hit in the 30's then 60's then 100 and 200. Why cant I scrape together more than a week without masturbating? 

Have you taken a look at the flight2freedom program? In there it discusses the "stages of change" model (it's very famous, GYE didn't make it up). I found it helpful to try to figure out which stage I am really in. Because we cycle through the stages, meaning that we can go through them multiple times, often the reason why what worked in the past is not working now is because we are recycling through the stages. 

For example, when I first came to GYE, I was already in the third stage, the planning stage. I knew I wanted to change and I was motivated. I made a plan and then I was in the fourth stage, action. I was clean for most of a year which some would say put me in the last stage, maintenance. 

For a long time, I have been "doing what I know works for me" but wonder of wonders, it stopped working. It took a while to realize that I was not in the maintenance stage anymore. after making a proper cheshbon, I realized that I was really back in contemplation. This means that it wasn't the plan that was failing, it was my motivation. For one reason or another, it just wasn't as clear to me that I wanted to change as it was when I first started.

Since then, I've recycled a few more times. I've had moments of motivation and in those moments, recreated my plan using the F2F program. My plan works well when I am actually in the action stage but it doesn't work when I am really in contemplation.

In summary, if you are anything like me, my plan is a working one, it's the desire to change that I struggle with. For you it might be something else, maybe your plan needs tweaking, maybe you are putting yourself at risk too often, I don't really know your situation but I think it's worthwhile to figure out exactly where you are going wrong. 

Motivation is the foundation that this whole house is built on. The tools are just like the bricks, but first we need to work on the foundation. 

Afterwards, we can work on using the tools so that we are building smartly and not wasting our energy. Fighting hard and not using the right tools might be another cause for burning out. 

As always, I am just sharing what I found on my journey, take it or leave it. 

One of my main struggles in life is my relentless self-criticism and perfectionism. I need to consciously fight it and question that voice of judgement, or else it will consume me and I will sink deeper and deeper into the pit of self-loathing, depression and inertia. To that end, let me enumerate the things I am doing right, and the steps I did take:

1. Bought myself a laptop that I can filter so I don't have an excuse to use unfiltered devices.
   Warning: Spoiler!

   Now I just use them without an excuse. How silly...

2. Got my phone and laptop filtered with the best filter I know of (GenTech).
3. Got WebChaver on the aforementioned devices.
4. I'm in regular contact with many chevreh from this wonderful site, by chat, email, phone, text, WhatsApp, and even in person. (I feel like I have a support system to help me stop, if only I wanted to...)
5. I opened up to a relative about my struggle.

Here are the things that remain to be done:

1. Get motivated.
2. Open up to a Rebbi, someone who I know and respect in real life.
3. Quit using unfiltered/unmonitored devices. Forever.
4. Quit fantasizing.
5. Quit masturbating.
6. Quit ogling at women.

​That's it. End of rant. Any constructive criticism or advice is welcome. Thank you.

OivedElokim 

I saw your post about not taking vows/contracts because you're afraid to break them and I just wanted to say that I personally felt the same way before starting to take them but I eventually started taking them I didn't break them. When I did start to take them (and I still do it like this now) I took the vows only by the day and only for that day, so in the back of my mind if I did really want to go and watch, I can at least wait until the next day and not break the vow. And I didn't do this everyday, I took the vows only when I felt the desire and/or came across a loophole or an unfiltered device. 

There's also ways to allow yourself to go look (despite taking the vow) if you agree to do certain things as a part of the vow before or after you go and look as a knas or distraction if you remember the vow at the time of the urge. But I assume you already checked out the Taphsic method and are still shaky about it. Try taking it one day at a time (even an hour at a time) in conjunction with the knas or distractions so even if the urge is "irresistible" you won't break the vow because if you go ahead and do them you would be able to watch without breaking the vow. I hope this can help and I do encourage you to at least try this on a day where you feel no urges at all to start to get used to it.