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Lost the battle but no tthe war! 04 Dec 2009 16:35 #32356

poshut yid
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Well Rabbosai,
As much as I was looking froward to reporting to you that I have conquered the mountain, I unfortunately have to tell you that I entered n intense battle on day 87 and sustained serious casualties. Although I lost this battle and as depressing as it is, I am ready to dust myself off, regroup, rearmour myself and head back into battle. I recognize that it is only the battle I have lost but not the war. It is difficult for me to look at thie situation and understand how I allowed myself to lose but the emes is that the yetzer horah wants me to be depressed and go binging and not get back up to fight. So I am not going to give him that victory.
Exactly 1 year ago today, I discovered GUE and it has literally changed my life. I do not have an exact cheshbon but I have had somewhere between 180 and 211 clean days in the last year! No matter which way you look at it, that is thousands of mashchitim that were not created through shz"l. So I am ready to go back into battle. I do not have the clarity how I will fight and get my spirits up. I am still embarrassed to daven to Hashem because I feel like a hypocrite but I know that once I get going it will be easier.
I would like to join the phone group and continue to post as we move towards the next 90 days.

Good Shabbos

P.Y.

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Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 06 Dec 2009 11:42 #32568

the.guard
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You are definitely not a pashut yid!

You say you are re-grouping and re-arming for a new battle. What I suggest is, to read the handbooks and decide what new weapons and new strategies you will use that you haven't tried before? Because the army you are facing off against hasn't gotten weaker... So if you want to beat it, you need to get stronger!

Use the recent fall to learn HOW he caught you, WHAT happened that led to it, etc.... And then decide, what can you do that THIS TIME will be different??

Post here your thoughts and we'll try and guide you.

May Hashem fight for you!

Webmaster of www.guardyoureyes.org - Maintaining Moral Purity in Today's World. We’re here on a quest ; it’s really all a test. Just do your best and G-d will do the rest.

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Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 06 Dec 2009 18:01 #32650

7yipol Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder YES HE CAN! Posts: 4686 Karma: 12	I only saw this today. 87 days and your reply to the fall is that youre back tomorrow for day 1?? To say that I am in awe is the understatement of the decade! Chazak v'ematz You are a real inspiration.
	Hashem is addicted to you! Feel His hugs!"Sheva yipol tzaddik VKUM" Last Edit: by !yehuda!.

Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 06 Dec 2009 18:06 #32651

the.guard Current streak: 805 days OFFLINE Moderator Posts: 6438 Karma: 138	To say that I am in awe is the understatement of the decade! 7up, I told you a million times to stop exaggerating.
	Webmaster of www.guardyoureyes.org - Maintaining Moral Purity in Today's World. We’re here on a quest ; it’s really all a test. Just do your best and G-d will do the rest. Last Edit: by mosheb1964.

Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 10 Dec 2009 19:18 #33922

Kollel Guy	If you can get up like that after such a streak, then this is one of those cases where if R' Tzadok was here, he'd probably tell you it was worth the fall just for that kiddush H-shem!! (I hope that what i just said isn't like gue k'firah or something)
	Last Edit: by DeletedUser5630.

Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 10 Dec 2009 19:26 #33927

rashkebehag	I agree that to get up after a major fall is staggring but lets not kid ourselves,its the only way!
	Last Edit: by the real me.

Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 10 Dec 2009 21:29 #33967

Kollel Guy	Definitely agree, but the "only way" is still amazing when your strong like that.
	Last Edit: by ar18548.

Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 12 Dec 2009 17:46 #34152

7yipol Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder YES HE CAN! Posts: 4686 Karma: 12	guardureyes wrote on 06 Dec 2009 18:06: To say that I am in awe is the understatement of the decade! 7up, I told you a million times to stop exaggerating. :-[ What I really meant to say is the understatement of the millenium! So there, Guard
	Hashem is addicted to you! Feel His hugs!"Sheva yipol tzaddik VKUM" Last Edit: by guardmyeyes101.

Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 12 Dec 2009 19:41 #34159

the.guard Current streak: 805 days OFFLINE Moderator Posts: 6438 Karma: 138	And I meant to say that I told you billions of times to stop exaggerating! ;D
	Webmaster of www.guardyoureyes.org - Maintaining Moral Purity in Today's World. We’re here on a quest ; it’s really all a test. Just do your best and G-d will do the rest. Last Edit: by dedojox264.

Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 12 Dec 2009 21:27 #34169

imtrying25 Current streak: 16 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3010 Karma: 2	Are Mama and Papa fighting again?????????????????????????? :-[
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Re: Lost the battle but no tthe war! 13 Dec 2009 09:38 #34277

7yipol Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder YES HE CAN! Posts: 4686 Karma: 12	imtrying25 wrote on 12 Dec 2009 21:27: Are Mama and Papa fighting again?????????????????????????? :-[ Dont take away all our fun!
	Hashem is addicted to you! Feel His hugs!"Sheva yipol tzaddik VKUM" Last Edit: by .