I would also say that it's easier to push off acting out now or any particular moment  in Tishrei because of Din and Teshuva, but as soon as its over.... and this could be  happening subconsciously 

Maybea strategy would be to learn the sforim that explain to us that Hoshana Raba is a yom hadin. After Isru Chag,look into the chassidishe sforim that tell us the gmar chasima is Zos Chanuka.....

Either way, keeping clean in Elul Tishrei has the added psychological benefit that it shows a person, "Hey, I kept clean for a few weeks. It's not impossible. If I could do it then, I can set up motivation to do it other times of the year." Hatzlocha!

i-man wrote on 26 Sep 2019 03:55:

Yikes just slipped....caught myself ..
I think I need to accept that there will always be triggers in some form or another and I cant be busy looking for reasons why NOW it makes sense to fall , rather what should o be prepared for and how to prevent triggers from turning into actions.

err I thought I caught myself..
than I slipped and slipped some more till I fell .
the good news is that it was not as bad as it could have been (no I will not have to say all the parentheses next Yom Kippur...)

Do you have easy access to unfiltered devices buddy? Can this be avoided or will you run to Walmart to buy a phone if you don't have easy access? If it can be avoided, lets give up this pacifier once and for all.....

Hashem Help Me wrote on 25 Oct 2019 04:50:

B'H My devices are locked down pretty tight but can be improved,  and iy'H I will try to improve on that this year( as I told Hashem that I would on Y'K)
buying a cheap "aveiraphone" is a rare occurrence the opportunity is always there but I need to be in a really bad place to resort to that...

I did not want to post this but that probably means I should...
I fell again tonight,  earlier I got the post acting out depression and got slightly stuck in it the rest of the night, the filters saved me from accessing any real porn
​but it was to no avail,  I feel stupid this really pas nisht for me ...
I need to feel more fufilled and I need to learn how to deal with stress/anxiety 
I was set up with a therapist but that got derailed and the soton has been slowing me from getting a new one,  but I see that I have no choice..

Markz wrote on 28 Aug 2018 04:38:

It's that time of year again....B'H in my neck of the woods the fires are contained for the most part  , I Gotta keep in mind the best tool in battling blazes is ...Prevention 

i-man wrote on 30 Oct 2019 05:00:

"Dov" to the rescue!

Woke up in the middle of the night half sleeping and masturbated(I think I wasnt really cognizant)  it makes sense as I was engaged in lusting the prior 36 hours.

I gotta be more careful...

Oy-man.

Gevura Shebyesod wrote on 20 Nov 2019 21:31:

I think your getting confused with a different thread ....

study says: counting with other people your hard days is like counting for a specific happy day privately 
it gives you the energy to count easy 
keep it up!!! 

i-man wrote on 20 Nov 2019 21:59:

One track minded... me 2...
I was sure that rewiring was gonna get to us one day... not yet...

Markz wrote on 21 Nov 2019 05:10:

who said that rewiring has to happen all at once ?