chaimoigen wrote on 09 Jan 2025 04:37:

LOL! listen if r' leib [who had a big and important agenda by printing them] didn't publish the last one, (there are a few select copies) because he was worried about the kovod of the ruv, (i heard from 2 choshuvim that the reason was because he wasn't maskim to the ruvs mehodrin shtikel that he sent in, and it would be a bizoyon to print it or to send it back, the famous shtikel thats in sefer!!!!!! mochlokos between those choshuvim if it was because of r' shach q. or the etzem yesod, a 3rd adam choshuv told me that r' binyomin zatz''l told him that it wasn't published because of someones kovod, without specifying who's), than i'm shtark choshesh that my thread ain't getting near there.

Thank you everyone for your chizuk! it means alot to me!!!!!! i'm not sure what i should post about now, so i guess i'm just checking in at day 22! and bh i am feeling some real hope!

Hatzlocha fuhn der mir!

ah gut voch chevra! 24!!!!!!!!!!

Hi chevra! hope your all doing great! woke up today feeling under the weather and it's only getting worse, since i can't function fully i therefor am little off schedule, I therefor have the ability not to feel good about myself, since i'm not acomoplishing much, which in the past coulv'e quickly led to thoughts of acting out, which would very quickly become reality, so here i am to share that get it off my chest, and hopefully i'll be ok, i'll be intouch with my guy! bh so far my spirits are high halevai vaiter! hopefully i'll learn/read a little and maybe even try to take the extra time alone to focus on feeling good about my real self! (very important) because hey this is a journey and in the last few weeks there was alot of growth!

kol tuv from der mir!

Hi i would just like to update the oilam that bh the rest of my day was good, took it a little slow (it's so hard for me to not be busy even for half a minute, i know the old jewish machlah.....), and bh did not feel down on myself (even read the english book on the mashgiach, it's good אבער ניט מיין משגיח), i actually (gasp) enjoyed spending time with family! so it's day 25!!!!!!!!!!

Hatzlocha!

Hi, so today was really under the weather/fever, not geshmak and all, but bh i feel happy about myself (even though this altehmirrer just learned for a short time today), and bh it's not even so hard for me, just a little preperation......, either way cheers for day 26!!!!! VICTORY

27!