Shalom Aleichem everyone. Hope you're all doing well.

Haven't posted in quite some time, and might not do so for the next little while. That's because I got married.

מה אשיב לה', כל תגמולוהי עלי. אין אנחנו מספיקים להודות לך ד' אלקינו ואלקי אבותינו על אחת מאלף אלפי אלפים ורבי רבבות פעמים הטובות שעשית עם אבותינו ועמנו.

Chasdei Hashem Yisborach, I married my incredible, amazing אשת חיל almost three weeks ago. I originally had the intention to write this letter earlier, but I've been quite busy, and B"H, still am.

I won't go through my whole story here, I've written it on GYE before. But for those who are not familiar with it, let's just say that it wasn't an easy journey-and Baruch Hashem, I've never been more grateful for it. Every single scar and wound I've had, every single צער that I've suffered through, every single tear I've shed and every ounce of pain that I've been through was all part of the רבונו של עולם's amazing, Godly plan for me. I have experienced more ברכה, שמחה והצלחה, and סייעתא דשמיא in the past few months than I ever thought possible. I'll say it again: מה אשיב לה', כל תגמולוהי עלי.

To my fellow GYE fighters: YOU CAN DO THIS. 5 years ago, when I was virtually in hell, plumbing the depths of anxiety, depression and pain, I never, ever would have fathomed that I could be where I am today. The view from up here at the peak is incredible-you can't even see the base of the mountain. Never, ever underestimate the כוחות that Hashem has instilled in the DNA of every single Yid. Never, ever forget that Hashem is הכל יכול-able to do literally anything at any moment. עשה רצונך כרצונו, כדי שיעשה רצונו כרצונך. He has a plan for you, now and always. He is everything, and gives us everything-every cent, every friend, every moment of joy, and yes, even every moment of pain, is from Hashem-and he loves us more than anything throughout it all, even when it's so incredibly difficult to understand. ברוך הגבר אשר יבטח בה', והיה ה' מבטחו-בטחו בה' עדי עד.

Perhaps most importantly, remember to be good to yourself. You will not grow, have a healthy relationship with anyone, or have proper 'עבודת ד if you don't forgive yourself, love yourself and give yourself another chance-ALWAYS-to grow and be better. It doesn't mean condoning everything you've done. It doesn't mean letting yourself do anything. It means acknowledging that you are a better person than all of this filth, garbage and insanity that rages in this crazy world, promoted by virtually everyone except for us-because we know the אמת. YOU know the אמת. 

!הלא הד', הוא האלקים האמיתי, ואין עוד מלבדו

And if He put you here, continues to give you life and opens your eyes every single morning, that means He-who created you, gave you a נשמה, and chose you to be His-believes in you. So who are you to doubt yourself? You've got this!!

You can't see the peak from the base, it's true. But let me tell you a little secret: you can't see the base from the peak either. It's just too high up.

Chasdei Hashem, I'm living proof.

Hashem, thank you so, so much for everything You've given me and continue to give me every moment of every day. I love You, and will sing Your praises until the end of my days.

הצלחה רבה everyone. !שמחות ובשורות טובות

All the best, with immeasurable gratitude,



FighterWithFire

Awesome! Inspiring!
And BeH you will keep going up from here. Mazal Tov!

Dear FWF, you literally brought me to tears. May you be gebentched with continued bracha and hatzlacha, may the clarity of this post accompany you all of your life, and may you spread the simcha within you to all of of those who are fortunate enough to know you