Rage, you should change those passwords for no ones sake but your own.
The constant subtle reminder brings you nothing but sadness.
Until you can let her go, you are still as trapped as if to p*rn
Been there, done that.
Couldnt get over my first boyfriend. We met when I was 11, dated till I was 16, and I never let go till a few years ago. All I accomplished was long term pain.
I now realize he was a gift from Hashem at a difficult stage of life, and was my rope to sanity and security, as I changed continents, cultures and left all the familiar behind.
I finally realized I wasnt 'in love' with him , but rather, the emotions he evoked - warmth, security etc etc.
My mistake was holding on to the rope longer than needed, and almost hanging myself with it.
Finally, I am free.