correct i mean to say i dont try and do anything surrender it to god or call anyone or push it off b h im slowly getting back on track

melost wrote:
"Leaning too much" on some other people?

Do you mean you think you are a bother to others when you call them to admit what's going on with you? Do you mean that you do not call anyone?

If that's what you mean, then OK, fine. But then you are not using the program at all, Avrohom. Opening up to other people is not 'leaning on them'. It is inviting them to open up to you, too! If you get the guts to open up and talk, then you will see what good things you get - and give - to others. Otherwise, you will obviously get exactly what you are getting right now.

If nothing changes, then nothing changes.

ive been a disaster lately and the only one to blame is me not my addiction only me i havnt been doing the steps reading thev white book calling people yesterday i masterbated 5 times

i would like to commit to start praying to god first thing in the morning and surrender any lust i have and call at least 3 people a day

thank u hashem still sober wanted to act out before i gave it to god and made calls

you are like the Energizer bunny, keeps going and going
thats the name of the game
sometimes we need to take 1 hour at a time, sometimes 15 minutes at a time, sometimes 1 minute at a time
KUTGW

shabbos was quite hard had alot of lust surrended alot went away from the situation i was in i motzie shabbos was very angry upset so i took a cigarete instead of acting out not clever at all as i need to learn to cope with things and not run away dosnt make a diffrence running away is bad b,h im still sober since thursday

You may not be lusting your brains out, but are still counting your brains out. Either way, you end up with no brains left for real living. And, eventually, if living your own real life is not giving you the relief you were getting there on your knees in the bathroom masturbating yourself, then it will not work.

If I can do this, then anybody can, brother.

Stop counting completely and instead just make the days count. Consider 'no counting for you'. Just a suggestion from one powerless addict to another.

if there is one thing imm learning from here, sa is i dont know everything and i have to listen thanks for ur advice

i dont know what to do im in sa its going realy bad i know what i need to do but i cant get myself to do it i keep on masterbating its making me feel ill and tired its killing me and i dont know any advice HELP HELP any pleasere:(

b'h im doing better went to a meeting yesterday got motorvation to work the steps and get closer to hashem did my step work today davened calles thank you hashem:cheer:

still not going easy but getting closer to my higher power

Hi, friend.

im realy getting anoyed that im attracted to some men and the more i worry about it the the more i think about it and get more attracted i just looked at the ssa section i think i just need to forget about it any advice just writing this has made me lust my diesese is speading

Then try something else, chaver. It is not working for you, obviously.