Beautiful Post! 

I can't believe I just fell.
I feel as if I have no strength. This is following one of the longest streaks in my life.

I feel destroyed, like I let my loving parents down

Now is most important to get back up build on failure see how you can improve next time you got this now is not the time to throw in the towel you may have lost the battle but you’re winning the war don’t surrender that would not be smart get back up and win the next battle

NachalNovea wrote on 28 May 2020 23:38:

Mazel tov on your long streak. How are you celebrating it?

I am serious buddy. If lets say you were helping a fellow to stop speaking lashon hara. He used to speak every other day. That equals approx. 180 times a year. He works on it and keeps his mouth shut from gossip for 36 days. Incredible! That is an average of 10 ties a year. Of course being that he is focused, he will iyh get past 36 too.... So buddy, why is this different?! Go celebrate, clean up, and move on. Great things are waiting for you iyh.

Love this idea, but it confuses me because if someone/i am in that state of mind, even posting may not stop/prevent, but only delay, and then potentially speaking with someone would also just be a further delay, and it could also seem odd to be thinking that, and also asking someone to call you. the emergency picture resource i found on this site once helped a lot, and the whatsapp status about our blood being as korban if we hold it, but i've been falling weekly/monthly for a year now.

Speaking to someone is not to delay acting out. It is to help you rewire your brain about sexuality, and to create accountability. It helps remove the "need" to act out....

What to do if you're lonely ?

Good question. I dont know really, I've come to realize after MANY years that p%%% is a symptom* of loneliness. Day 15, and (to quote this title) I'm about to fall! 

* based on zero scientific evidence, i might add

So I’m engaged. Sometimes I can not stop thinking about everything. 

the stress doesn’t make it better. 
It’s getting to be really hard - the filters on my devices saved me so many times in the past month. 

im a guy with a lot of energy & she’s really amazing - super sweet & would never hurt a fly. 

NachalNovea wrote on 08 Dec 2020 13:34:

Yes, the stress of getting married can have a negative effect on what is supposed to be the most exciting and relaxing part of our life. Don't be fazed it's totally normal! 

Now, you gotta reign yourself in, which you can do because you have done it in the past. Remember an urge is just a thought. Nothing more. You do have the ability to say no. You have something beautiful and exciting to look forward to and thank Hashem for.

In the meantime try to spend time rewiring your brain about lust. Understand it's not a need and it's not something to be so intimidated by. Gaining this mindset now will help you immensely in your marriage. So hang in there! You know you can!

Just had a rough math test, and I feel like I may fall tonight. Does anyone have some chizuk?

NowIsGood wrote on 09 Dec 2020 03:06:

Yes.

What’s 90 x 1?

90. I see -- one day at a time, or even 1 minute.

NowIsGood wrote on 09 Dec 2020 03:06:

Rough math test + sleep = Feeling good tomorrow.

Rough math test + fall = rough tomorrow too.

Seriously though, it's understandable when after a rough situation we want to drown ourselves in mindless lust. Why? Because we want to pacify and make ourselves feel better. For a second. After we feel worse. So, is it enticing? Absolutely, but does it make ANY sense? Absolutely not.

So my friend remind yourself how bad and pained you felt after last fall and don't put yourself through that again!

Now, one more math example:

If Ronald had a rough math test and feels bad, now he wants to lust his way out of his feelings, how long will it take Ronald to realize that he's shooting himself in the nose to spite his face?

Fought it so much. 

17 day streak!!!



is it normal - I was fighting it -  told her to come over so we can talk/ hang out. 



I think I do it bc she inspires me to me the best I can be. Thoughts?