Life really is a good place to be visiting. Force yourself to notice the sunshine, the fall leaves, the chirping birds. Take a walk and notice the gurgling baby in his stroller, the school kids laughing and running home to play. Notice life, everyday, 'boring' life. Notice the colors, how many different shades of green and blue the world is made up of. You are the REASON for that picture. You are a kaleidoscope of all those colors and hues. There is holiness even in your falls, because you are crying your eyes out each time, begging to be holy. Even falling can bring you closer to Hashem. How much more so NOT falling! "Bishvili nivra ha'olam - for me, the world was created". Hashem doesn't make mistakes. And He doesn't create worlds for second class citizens.