HELLO ALL HEILIGEHS AND HEILIGOS,
TODAY IS SEVEN MONTHS THAT I AM OFF THE CYCLE OF:
SHTUSS/SHMUTZ/CRY/DAVEN, SHTUSS/SHMUTZ/CRY/DAVEN
SHTUSS/SHMUTZ/CRY/DAVEN, SHTUSS/SHMUTZ/CRY/DAVEN
SHTUSS/SHMUTZ...
OK, WITHOUT ANY FANFARE AND ONE SHOT OF WOODFORD, HERE GOES:
I LEARNED 4 POWERFUL LESSONS DURING THESE HOLY 7 MONTHS.
1.
SLIPPING IS NORMAL, BUT STAYING DOWN AFTER YOU SLIPPED? NEVER! GET OFF THE FLOOR, WIPE YOUSELF OFF... KEEP ON MOVING, KEEP ON TRUCKING!
2.
I LEARNED THAT JOHN OR HARRY'S WIFE HAS "NOTHING' TO DO WITH ME.
END OF STORY...
NOTHING!
I DON"T CARE IF SHE IS...
OR WHAT SHE IS...
OR WHY SHE IS - OR ISN'T...
I WILL NOT SOLVE THE MIDDLE EAST CRISIS
NOR THE HEALTHCARE DEBATE.
AND I WILL NOT SOLVE THE TZNIUS ISSUE EITHER.
SHE MAY BE A PROBLEM, BUT SHE'S NOT "MY" PROBLEM
IF IT AINT YOUR RING-TONE, DON'T PICK UP THE PHONE!!
YES, TIGHT CLOTHES AND TALL BOOTS ETC WILL STILL TRIGGER ME,
BUT I DONT GO TO THE BANK OR THE MALL TO FIND THOSE TRIGGERS ANYMORE.
WE MAY HAVE CAUGHT A FIRST LOOK, BUT WE CAN CHOOSE NOT TO LOOK A SECOND TIME.
THE LUST IS STILL THERE, BUT I LOVE MYSELF AND I LOVE HASHEM AND I LOVE MY WIFE AND MY KIDS MUCH MUCH MORE THAN MY LUST.
3.
THE 3RD THING I LEARNED IS JUST HOW CLOSE WE ARE TO HASHEM.
HASHEM SEES US IN ALL OUR SITUATIONS, AND HE ACCEPTS ALL OUR MISTAKES AND LOVES US JUST THE SAME.
THE SADDEST THING IS, THAT WE NEEDED TO FALL FIRST IN ORDER TO BE PICKED UP AND FEEL THAT LOVE!
4.
AND THE LAST THING I LEARNED IS THAT THIS FORUM IS ALL ABOUT AHAVAS YISROEL!! WOW, WHAT A KOACH!!
A truer statement could not be said about the Ahavas Yisrael here!! I've thought about this a lot: Why is it that the chabura kadisha here at GYE is infused with such a spirit of ahavas yisrael?
Here are my thoughts. The anonymity that previously had been the very source of our descent into the nether worlds of he**, is also a blessing in disguise to us all here on GYE. The common denominator of our quest for recovery, for returning to Hashem, for spirituality, these are the things that unites us.
All the usual human pettiness, resentments and jealousy that are at the root of all divisiveness - don't exist here on GYE.
On GYE, our unity and purity of quest bond us at the deepest levels of our very souls, where some might say we are not anonymous but rather - WE ARE All ONE!!!!
With fiery love to all,
Noorah