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I grew up in a frum family, relatively Yeshivish, though I did watch movies occasionally. I went through standard adolescent turbulence but turned out OK, boruch Hashem. I learned in Yeshiva for a bunch of years, and enjoyed learning. However, from the time I was young, I...

B"H I hugged my wife before leaving today.. And Literally every single night of their lives (except for when they are away with a relative), I go and gently stroke my children's heads as they are sleeping, and rub their back as they dream. One of them used to really let ...

Although this is my first post, I have benefited from the GYE community for the past 2 years. My purpose in writing is to share with my brothers what worked for me in the hope of helping. I was lost in a very severe lust addiction for 30 years, starting pretty much from...

I come from a quasi-broken home, devoid of all love and affection. I first turned to shmuzt+hz"l as a temporary 'relief' from the bitter depression that I lived with day and night. With no social network, and virtually no family, I was left to raise myself, and provide my...

Hi everyone.I thought it would be fair to post and let all of my friends and supporters know that yesterday was my 90th not-acting out day. A year ago I told people here that my doing 90 days would be impossible. Baruch shechiyani vekiyimani, vehigiati lazman ha-ze! Thank...

I have B"H over 6 years clean in SA, and I am grateful for such a venue to share these victories in the name of Hashem with others. Somehow I've been doing great even without meetings, but I make phone calls everyday to share and connect. Your chizuk e-mails help even fur...

I am introducing myself as a way of forcing myself to face my own problem honestly. I am well passed adolescence (>50), yet I feel I never really grew up in the area of porn.I had to finally face reality when I was asked to leave my job for viewing Porn. Through counse...

Yechezkel posted his powerful & inspiring story on the forum: I think it's incredible that this website exists; what it must be doing in shamayim is amazing... What I am about to tell you today is something that I have been longing to do for a long while. I wanted to...

My name is Yossi, I am a 19 year old Bochur, and I have been Shomer Habris for over 6 months B"H - the best 6 months of my life. One of the main things that spurred me to stop, besides for the extreme seriousness of the sin, was the realisation of how much better life wou...

It was from the depths of physical, spiritual, emotional and mental hell that the leaders of GuardYourEyes pulled me out. They are nothing less than malachei Hashem. The first step of the 12 steps in any addiction recovery program, is to admit your powerlessness over your...

I first encountered pornography in the back of a convenience store when I was about 10 or 11 years old. There was a whole "Adults Only" section with no one in it and it was separated from the rest of the store so I could browse with ease. Whenever I had a chance to go, I'...

Someone emailed me about your website a few days ago and I enjoyed reading a lot here, thanks. It is always nice to "meet" other people that I can relate with, and commiserate with what other people are going through. After doing the first of the 12-Steps (admitting powe...

I first discovered the dark world of lust at about age 15, when a fellow yeshiva student showed me smut. Until then I had never even considered it at all, I had never even thought of women. It went on for years, and every Rosh Hashana I would swear that I would stop. When...

Quick Intro: I was born and raised religious and have been known for the last 15 years as a Erliche Chassidishe Yid, married with children. My story started when I was about 8 years old. While taking baths, I began to experiment with my body and found that by doing certai...