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Today is a momentous day for me b"h.

Day 1,000!!!!!!!

I'm getting emotional...

First off THANK YOU HASHEM!!! I know without a doubt that this wouldn't have been possible without your loving hand guiding me along.

I'd like to take the opportunity to reflect on some of the hard-earned lessons learned on this 1,000 + day journey, from someone who's "been there done that" (basically everything from virtual acting-out to live).

1) Change / recovery is painful. My definition of Hitting "rock bottom" is the point at which being actively addicted is MORE painful than the pain of change - at this point, change becomes the logical next step.

2) RESPONSIBILTY! - We all have our own back stories, we all have seemingly legitimate excuses and we all have rationalizations. Taking responsibility means that NO MATTER WHAT, even if prostitutes would be falling out of the sky - The buck stops by me!!

A good antidote to rationalizations and excuses is to just picture telling your wife: "I cheated because I was tired, moody, abused, etc." We all know that logic won't go too far.

3) CONNECT with someone on gye. The opposite of addiction is not sobriety - it's CONNECTION. Addiction thrives on isolation! Find someone on GYE (either through the forum or the partner program) that you can share your pain and struggles with. Have someone that you can text, call or meet when the going gets rough. And finally, have someone who can cheer you on and celebrate your both big and small wins with you!

4) Plan Ahead - Be proactive. As they say, "If you fail to plan - you plan to fail". The yetzer horah rarely tries to fight us when were doing well, he looks for opportunities when we're down and out or caught off guard. When were tired, moody or stressed....

If we're proactive, most of the time we can anticipate ahead of time that we're about to be in a vulnerable spot. If you know that when you're tired you're vulnerable, then if you come home from a chasunah at 2am don't just go to sleep and hope for the best tomorrow! Call your GYE chaver, text him, make a short term TaPHSiC shvuah, or do whatever else works for you.

5) Don't become complacent; "I'm already in a good place I don't need to be vigilant anymore". COMPLACENCY IS THE BEGINNING OF YOUR LAST CLEAN DAY. While this day can sometimes last a while, if we're complacent, it's just a matter of time before we get caught off guard.

6) Take the journey one day at a time. Over these past thousand days I've had times of sheer elation, times of utter frustration and times of vulnerability when I thought that this all my success might evaporate. Buckle up and get ready for the journey of a lifetime!

7) I'm just a regular person - just as special as you! If I can do it so can you!!