Direct anger and frustration at the addiction and use that energy for recovery.
My shooting instructor once told me, "there are people in this world who need to be shot. When that time comes, you want to be able to help them".
We owe him. Now it's your bullet. For every smashed dream, for every moment of guilt, disgust, fear... we owe him a blood debt, one that we won't forget. Every time we say no, every time we help someone else say no - it's payback time.