I just wanted to share something that I heard in name of R' Yerucham. It say in this weeks parsha that Rivka went to Beis Shem ve'Eiver to ask about her difficult pregnancy. They told her that she was going to have two entirely different types of children. The meforshim understand that after she was told that, she was comforted. The question is, once she knew she was about to bring one of the most wicked people into the world, why on earth was she comforted? R' Yerucham explains that she was told a Yesod: one can only grow from having a bad side too. There can only be a Yaakov if there is also an a Eisav.
And in order to become klal yisroel and develop into the generation that would get the Torah, they had to be in Mitzrayim, one of the most impure places in the world. We find that only one mamzer was born during that entire period, and that was by force. It was through the merit of upholding Kedusha davka in the most impure place on Earth, that made us worthy of becoming "The Chosen Nation".
Those who struggle with lust have special souls that were put in this world of today, the most impure period in history, to purify ourselves and become one of the greatest people of all time.
But as I'm beginning to realize more and more (especially since my recent fall), it's just not manageable alone. We need to be more involved with others who are struggling too; on the forum, on the phone groups - and in SA groups. We need to get a therapist, accountability partners, sponsors, etc... and open up to others. We can't go it alone.
FORWARD, ON THE WAY TO PURITY!!