Life was and is so much better without lust - the thing I was convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt that I couldn't live without! Today life is real, it's geshmak, it's useful, it's real, it's consumingly interesting and full of surprises, and... did I say that "it's real"?
Gevalt! What a fool I was! Nu, but that's an addict. A real fool.
And I am still a "fool". It's just that this here fool is a fool for Hashem! Share my mistakes with others? Lead with my weakness? Give up to win? Good for free? Trust in an invisible G-d? What am I nuts!?! So it seems....
Let's all have a l'chayim and say this foolish thing together: "To heck with me - what can I do for You/you?"
I just had a thought. A foolISH person is one that does foolISH things.
But, when the person recognizes that what he did/does is fool-ISH, then he becomes the second part of the word (Ish - a man). When we recognize our foolishness, then we become an "ISH"... fool ISH. Or, maybe we can say that the fool-ISH turns into a FULL ISH, (i.e. a complete man). Like in Mitzrayim... from the very depths of tuma came the yeshua. Here too, from our own personal depths of FOOL-ISH-NESS, when we are zocheh to recognize it, we become FULL ISH, a complete man. And that is a real Ness (miracle)! Fool-Ish-Ness :-)
Chag Same'ach!
P.S. "Purim Torah" is still allowed on Pesach, as Rashi comments about "Mi'shenichnas Adar Marbim Be'Simcha: "Because of the miracles that happened in the months of Adar and Nissan".