Last week, after a series of slips and falls, I found myself in a rut, feeling sorry for myself and helpless, thinking "I'm never going to win this battle. It's useless." Today, as I sat on my phone aimlessly surfing the web, I started to feel an extreme desire to look at adult material. I have been clean from pornography for over a year, but I was in such a sorry state that little could hold me back.
Just as I was about to type it into the search bar, a notification pops up "The Shmiras Ainayim Chizuk List email received."
At that moment I felt as though God had literally kissed me, to say "I'm here to help you no matter how far away you feel from me." It was such a clear and perfectly timed message, I lit up with happiness and joy. To see Hashem's helping hand in such an obvious yet subtle way was the perfect boost I needed to get past that challenge and make it to see another clean day.