I just want to share a thought that I heard from Reb Yitzchak Moishe Erlinger from Yeshivas Me'Oir Einaim in Yerushalaim (a Very Holy Yid) at the shiur that he gave yesterday at Irgun Shurei Torah in Boro Park.
He was talking about how to achieve real Simcha in the month of Adar. And one of the points he made was that "Ein Simche K'Hatoras Hasfeikus - There's no greater Simcha then resolving one's doubts!"
Often we get stuck in Doubts: "Can I make it? Will I fall again? Will I have to deal with this for the rest of my life?" Etc.. and the list is endless.
Amalek is B'Gematria Safek! All the Satan wants is to put us into doubt & then he has us beat.
When we make up our minds to do something good, Amalek shows up with the Question Marks. "Me?!? Nah! I can do this? I tried so many times before, why should it be different this time? And anyway, is it that bad? ... Hashem Loves me? Why would He?"
And we drop it right there & then & Amalek won.
He added a known saying that "A bad decision is better then no decision at all!" We might end up "eating" this decision we made, but it's still worth it.
We have to make decisions & not let any doubts get in the way, no matter what!
Yes, I am going to do whatever it takes to deal with my addiction! No "Ifs", "Ands" or "Buts"!
And when we get rid of doubts & make solid decisions, then yes! We Will Be Happy!
And when we are Happy, we don't get caught up in Sin.
I bless you all with Happiness for the rest of your lives.
E.L.