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The GYE forum is virtual land... the land of the fake. All you guys here are not people, you are algorithms... it's all 1s and 0s, right? The real world is people in $1500 suits and the New York Post at every...

Chazal call the first day of Sukkos, "Rishon l'Cheshbon Ha'avonos - the first day for an accounting of sins". This cannot simply mean that we're too busy to sin before then, because that's not necessarily true and, furthermore, that's not w...

Question of the Week: Why do we celebrate the festival of Sukkos immediately after Yom Kippur? Wouldn't it be better to space out these festivals? Or is there some connection between fasting on Yom Kippur and eating in an outdoor hut f...

"X-addict" posted on our forum 4 months priviously: Hello, regards from Stamford Hill. I'm 20 years old and have a computer with internet access in my room. I used to be a crazy addict, seriously now, I was, like, the king of p**n, ...

During Slichos, I struggled a bit with reconciling a positive frame of mind with emotion about how bad I've been. Everybody here (on the forum) was helpful in me getting past that. Thank you. Rosh Hashana was good, I focused on being M...

I thought about all the forum people that I could remember during shacharis this Yom Kippur. It was the best part, as far as I am concerned. It's funny, but there is only one tefillah during which I get a "second wind" and take a ...

Chevra, How many of you are asking yourself this question? After all, we just completed 40 Days of Teshuva; first kicking off the process of "return" at the beginning of Elul, followed by the humbling experience of Coronating the ...

On Erev Yom Kippur "Trying" posted: This is very hard for me to say, since I'm dead embarrassed. But secrecy keeps strengthening the addiction, so here goes. I fell again last night. Yes, I know it's Erev Yom Kippur. I don't know how I...

A fascinating and beautiful Zohar (Raya Me'heimna) that is read before Tekiyas Shofar in many kehillos: On Rosh Hashana, Yitzchak (representing the aspect of judgement) calls his son Esav (representing the Satan) and asks him to bring ...

We all know the truth. We all die. We are nothing but flesh, blood, veins and bones; here today, dust tomorrow. Our eyeballs are delicate balls of mushy fluid. And the objects of our desires are also flesh, blood and veins. If we ...

Yom Kippur can only atone for sins that we do Teshuvah for, but if we continue to hold on to the "Sheretz", can we ask Hashem to purify us? Doing teshuvah means "letting go" of the sins, and making fences so that we don't inevi...

Every person on this site, No matter how long they have been clean, no matter how many times they fell, are engaged in fighting their y"h. They are not sitting passively. They don't always win, but they are fighting. And that is ...

I am a few hours away from completing an entire niddah cycle clean... I have not done that once before (in 8 years of marriage)... I know that at (not even) 30 days clean I am still a nobody but I think I may have at least let go ...

I am holding by 22 days clean. Hashem just sent me a really hard test now, but I read what you just sent me (at least five times!), and now I'm feeling better. Thanks. My Rosh Yeshiva said today in the name of R' Yerucham, that we small...

A few months ago when I was reading the testimonials, I cried, because I was 100% sure that I would never be able to write one of those, and that I was be living in the grasps of giluy arayot and the yetzer hara for the rest of...

Dear Chevra (and especially Guard), The Rosh Hashana that I just had is incomparable to any other that I had experienced in the past. I still have a very long way to go, but I felt that I have at least an opening in my life with which ...

I heard a special thought about Teshuva that I feel is exemplified by all of you on the GuardYourEyes forum. On Yom Kippur, we read the story of Ninveh. Yona tells Ninveh that Hashem has decreed that Ninveh be overturned. The potential meaning of this was twofold. Either ...

I want to thank you for your work here. Only a few months ago, my life was full of such pain and I had no idea where to turn. The past yom kippors had such dread because I knew that there was little I could do. Today I got to 50 days ...