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Treat Movies Like Lust

"Steve", who was clean for a few months when he wrote this (see his inspiring thread here), wrote:

GYE Corp. Tuesday, 24 January 2012

When the big chill came these past weeks, I paid to join a movie download site so we could get old Hollywood "kosher" movies (that you can't find anymore) so we could distract the kids who were cooped up and asking for them.

I kept a copy of the program on my work comp, and when it went back to the office, I started downloading & watching action flicks I missed all these years, instead of working. See? - Instead of watching P, I was becoming an addict again to this stuff, and work and life was suffering once again.

On Friday I got a phone call from a client whose work is now two months late, and they started telling me how I've ruined my reputation and now have a name as someone who does great work but takes forever to deliver. It's like hitting rock bottom for me.

B"H I decided to be brave and honest with myself (an influence from the great guys on this forum), and on Motzoi Shabbos I went into my office and deleted all the movies I had downloaded and uninstalled the movie program. I am determined to rebuild my reputation, and I'm starting by treating Movies and videos the same way I treated lust - no second looks. And starting today, I'm gonna stay away from anything on-line that distracts me from learning, working and family time, bli neder.

May Hashem give me the strength and ability to put this all into practice.

 

Note: Besides for movies being addictive in their own right, a huge waste of time and an escape from "real life" (like the addiction was), they are also packed with triggers for lust addicts, and that goes even for old-time movies and children's movies today. Anyone who struggles with lust would be wise to avoid movies like fire! (See this funny article by Arutz Sheva Blogger, Tzvi Fishman).