In this book that I read (and am re-reading) by a sexual addiction therapist called "The First Day of the Rest of My Life", this woman goes about a tremendous life-changing day-at an amusement park.
Basically, we have fallen into the addiction because we live lives of fear, and this is out attempt to control the fear. Porn is a means of "security" from our fears. But really, our fears are illusions caused by insecurity. In short, it is one big cycle of "uch!"
This woman began her recovery by facing a big fear of hers - one which she clearly had no control over; Roller coasters.
On the roller coaster, she just stopped worrying and let her fears be experienced.
And she realized that she could make it and there's nothing to be afraid of.
Today I went with my brothers to an amusement park. I went on the biggest roller coaster and got in the front seat (scariest place), and I just took a deep breath and let go. That's it. I realized there's no point "buggin out" and trying to mentally gain control of the situation. I just put my faith in G-d and let Him take over.
It was beautiful and so freeing, my friends.
I felt a weight off my chest, and I couldn't stop smiling.
And then I went on again and again, but these times I barely had any fear to begin with.
I had conquered the roller coaster.
With G-d's help, I hope to implement this into every part of my life and be able to just live.
To live without anxieties.
To live without fear.
To live without feeling the need to "control the situation".
To just let the world be, and just do the little jobs that are given to us.
Geshmack!