I don't even wish I was ever innocent.
"WHAT?? ARE YOU CRAZY, OFF YOUR ROCKER, COMPLETELY TURKEY JERKY BEZERKY?"
Nope!
I just really think that this whole addiction ended up being good for me. You know why? It made me think. It made me aware of my effort to be good. It made me LIVE and not just go through life. IT MADE ME talk to Hashem cuz no one else could possibly understand me. It made me be good because I TRIED SO HARD, and not just because it was in my personality. It made me proud of who I am.
And I would never, ever give that up.