I have wasted much time in the past obsessing about my feelings and mood swings. Depression and/or anxiety lead me to seek comfort and oblivion in my favorite "medicine".
Of course this "medicine" (P and MB) is the sickness itself. It merely leads to a new round of bad feelings, and the cycle repeats itself ad nausea ...
My new mantra is: "HEALING, NOT FEELINGS!"
It takes time to let the brain recover from this addiction and develop new thought patterns.
For me, TRUE HEALING means breaking the negative cycle of addiction and developing a new, healthier mind-body chemistry.
I am determined to give myself a 90-day break from this addiction NO MATTER HOW I FEEL!
I can't let the Yetzer Hara manipulate my feelings. I must focus on the healing.
For the rest of the 90 days, my mantra is: "HEALING, NOT FEELINGS!"