Day 35. I am very pleased to report that my wife and I are making progress, and our marriage is getting stronger. I am feeling good and strong, no slips or falls and needed or wanted. I've worked hard over the past 35 days to have a strong will and great attitude. Now, acting this way is starting to become a real inner change.
I was looking at the blank Google homepage yesterday and it hit me that the same page that would have lead me to all the bad places - leads me to GYE! But then I realized that G-d is the one that helps me to GYE everyday. I can say that I have strong-will or say that my attitude is great - and it is, but the real reason I come here is G-d. I left this all to G-d, and I am truly blessed that I am lead here everyday.
He must have done something to my wife as well, because she is beside me more and more each day. She read my story (Chizuk e-mail #663) and my entire thread, and afterwards, I was not sure how she would react, but she was fine and told me that she was proud of me. That felt amazing.
I WILL WIN THE BATTLES AND THE WARS - WITH G-D'S HELP!!