Just sharing my current matzav with my dear Friends. I am in a really bad cycle now, it's been weeks since I have been sober.
But what is different now, since I joined GYE?
Firstly, the awareness I have gotten that all this negative behavior is NOT THE WAY NORMAL PEOPLE ACT is something that I have never experienced before. I was exposed to it from GYE.
Secondly, I have leaned that no matter what I get involved in, I will never ever be torn away from Hashem. I have learned to talk to Hashem in the worst times, and guess what? He helps.
Thirdly, I now am making my struggle alive by updating my rebbe and a close friend of my struggles.
If you ask me, that sounds like a lot changed in the past year.