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Last night was very, very tough. My wife had to go out shopping, which would have been a great time for me to act out previously. I won't say I wasn't tempted, but I looked at my personal printout of my 90 day chart and ...

"Ezra" posted on the forum: I am in my 30's, have 5 kids have been married about ten years. I have had this "struggle" for about 13 years. I got involved in online porn when I was in college. I started with small things that eventually led to watching things I never imagi...

RATM writes to someone who was unable to make it more than 3-5 days at a time for the past year or so, yet who still never gave up: You know, this 90 day chart is very, very important to me, and I do think it is very important... When I saw this site and started getting i...

"Kedusha" is one of GYE's most active members. He is always looking for ways to help promote GYE in the religious world, and to help other members grow. Just today, he posted a new incentive to help struggling members reach 90 days (see this post). And he was also the one...

There are no words to thank you, whoever you are. When I discovered your site (the details of how I discovered it are blurry, which is puzzling altogether) my life was changed. It was emotional at first when I realized that I was part of a group and not alone anymore. Whe...

I got an anonymous e-mail about this site and I've been lurking around for about a month now (thank you anonymous yid for e-mailing me!). I figure it's finally time I post a bit about my experiences. I just made it to level 3 in the 90 day journey. I'm 14 days clean! That...

Thank You GYE! Thank G-d, this past week I completed the GYE 90-day journey. It's been an interesting process and before I share some of what's worked for me I'd like to take this opportunity to thank each and every one of you. Whether you realize it or not, you've all p...

B"H, I have made strides toward changing my life for the better. I joined the 90-day chart, but I don't live for it, I live with it. I enjoy updating the chart but I don't think about what day it is every moment of the day. I also had the password Gabai change the passwor...

Day 90 of being clean and sober. Thank you G-d, thank you G-d, thank you G-d. How do you even come close to understanding this momentous - yet still so small of an accomplishment - at the same time? My gratitude is immense, and I will forever remember these 90 days proba...

I am very happily married with B"H a house full of children. I have been suffering from a lust addiction for decades, since I was a teenager. I have had my ups and downs. I even looked into joining a 12-Step SA group, but my Yetzer Hara got the better of me convincing m...

I grew up in a frum family, relatively Yeshivish, though I did watch movies occasionally. I went through standard adolescent turbulence but turned out OK, boruch Hashem. I learned in Yeshiva for a bunch of years, and enjoyed learning. However, from the time I was young, I...

"JIP", as he is known for short, has had a very painful life. It started when he was molested at the age of nine. See his painful story on this page. Here is what "JIP" wrote when he reached 90 days clean: 90 days! I owe a thank you to everyone for helping me get here, b...

Thank you HaShem for bringing me to GYE, and thank you Guard for being a true Shaliach. Here are my thoughts at 90 days. As R' Twerski put it in his beautiful article on Pesach, when one is freed spiritually, he is thankful for every second of his freedom. GYE has made me...

Dear R' Guard, We owe GYE a tremendous thank you. My wife and I feel like we've just been married again. Thanks to your website we've been able to tackle issues that have been haunting us ever since we were married and had effected all aspects of our marriage, and our liv...

I got addicted when I was very young by being exposed to p*rn in various friends' homes... Before I got married I confessed my struggle to my spouse to be, and fortunately she was very understanding in spite of my addiction. Unfortunately, I still kept falling back into m...

An e-mail we received today: Hi Guardureyes! I just had a fight with my wife and she went storming out the door.... The first thing I did, was rush to an unprotected computer and type in very bad website. I didn't actually get to see anything in the site and I quickly rem...

"Loi-miyaeish" (a bachur) wrote in the forum: BARUCH SHECHAYANU VEKIYAMANU VEHIGIYONU LAZMAN HAZEH! Guys, I'm overwhelmed with emotion. I reached 90 days this Rosh Hashana! But there again, without Hashem's help, it would not have been possible. For over a year, I've bee...

Getting to 90 days clean is a great feeling, and I want to share what helped me. I had started the 90 day chart in November 2009, but I kept falling. I couldn't put my finger on it, but I would go for a few weeks - and then fall, a few weeks - then a fall.Then I realized ...